Monday blues? nope!

Today is not the same like my previous Monday.. the reason being is that because I feel good! vibrant! energetic! hmm.. ape lg ayat yg bleh menggambarkan mood ari ni ye? enthusiastic! and all the synonym that relates to enthusiastic! heh! Frankly speaking, I do not know why, but it feels great you know, where normally Monday is the day that makes you feel kinda blues all day. Wondering why weekend seem to fly away rapidly. But today, I really feel different! Everything seem to be in order, got a couple of things settled, I'm wearing proper, preppy clothes to lab. *mcm nk g tgok wyg pn ad*...

And I hope that this feeling will linger with me for at least until working hour. =)

And thanks to PangeranChenta, for tagging me along with the question. nnt akak buat kalo ad masa ok ;)

gloomy or moody?

To begin with, I don't know what has come over me lately. *sigh* 2-3 ari ni hati rs mcm x tenang. is it me, or is it the surrounding? byk bnde pikir, byk bnde dh plan, but then, none of them I managed to do.

Please go away this bad feeling.. please please please...

Stop Child Abuse

Child abuse? Well, by reading the title above you'll instantly get a glimpse of what I'm about to write. Yes, STOP CHILD ABUSE!

The acts of child abuse I would never want to see happen again are:

1) physical abuse
2) emotional abuse
3) sexual abuse
4) neglect abuse

Children is our hope, the ones we would hope to manage the future wisely. Thus, it is our responsibility to take care of them, give the best education we could possibly get and nurture them to be a good, brilliant thinker.

So, raise your hand and together we stop child abuse now!

So they say, Rome wasn't built in a day!

You know, most of the time, it gets me thinking that "berkata2 tu mmg mudah, contohnyA mcm berazam utk improve utk diri sndiri and the list goes on and on... " but then, biar la kita ada 1001 azam pun, if no word such "istiqamah" or "continuity" or whatever you want to call it, as long as the meaning is still the same, xd gunanya kot.. kalo kte x berusaha bersungguh2 utk memastikan azam kte tu tercapai and accomplish!

The same thing happens to me. Let's say, for tonight, I'm too eager listing down things I should be doing tomorrow, or things I must do at least 2-3 times per week, for example: exercise. tapiiiii.. kalo kte x berusaha bersungguh2 utk maintainkn bnde yg kte nk buat tu, hmm, bace la buku yg paling bagus pun, xkn ad gunanya.

So, the best thing to do, is to read EVERYDAY all those things that we want to accomplish, so that we'll always be on track.. and bear in mind that no matter what happen, we will stick to it! After all, Rome wasn't built in a day. ;)

Ok, move to another completely different story.. last night, it was pretty sad to me.. sbb aku dgn x sengajanya terdudukkn spek mata.. uwaa.. dh byk kali bnde ni jd, tp smlm mmg betul2 dasat kot, smpi rim die terbukak.. still bleh pakai, but a bit ackward.. rs cm senget je dunia ni.


ok, it's time to sleep. moga2 esok Monday blues akan berkurangan dr last week. Nite y'all!

Sunday ramblings

oh.. today I'm all alone again. these past few days, my sis was here. die singgah sini dulu before balik uma cuti. She's a USM student jgk, but at the main campus. So, I feel all alone again since I'm living in a double room but with no roomie. I used to have one before, but she already moved in to a single room. tp ok je duk sorang ni, I got advantages rather than disadvantages. I think, the only disadvantage I can come up with right now is that the fact that I live alone. Tu je kot. Compare to advantagessss, like:

--> I can use as many space as I want, (tp naseb le ye kalo tbe2 1 hari ad roomie br masuk)

--> I can decorate this room as tunggang terbalik as I want... haha

--> I don't have to deal with person who has some kind of peculiar behaviour. Ok, when it comes to this, toleransi tu sgt penting, even up until one point, rs x tahan nak hamburkan segala kepelikan si dia kt sape2 yg sudi dgr.. @__@

But so far, I think I've got pretty good records with all my previous roomies. None of the memories are bitter..

Ok, this is what my room looks like at the moment. I have lotttsss of things, which I do not feature here. Siyesly, masa dh abes blaja nanti, tah bape trip kne ulang dr sini ke umah. In fact, mcm la dekat sgt rumah I tu.. from Penang all the way to Selangor. dekat kot??

song I listen to

I am totally addicted to this song at the moment. Nelly, Just a Dream.

I guess I was right back then, you don't know what you've got till it's gone.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

I was at the top and I was like I’m at the basement.
Number one spot and now she found her a replacement.
I swear now I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby.
And now you ain't around, baby I can't think.
Shoulda put it down. Shoulda got that ring.
Cuz I can still feel it in the air.
See her pretty face run my fingers through her hair.

My lover, my life. My shorty, my wife.
She left me, I'm tied.
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

When I be ridin man I swear I see her face at every turn.
Tryin to get my usher over, I can let it burn.
And I just hope she notice she the only one I yearn for.
Oh I miss her when will I learn?

Didn't give her all my love, I guess now I got my payback.
Now I'm in the club thinkin all about my baby.
Nelly Just A Dream lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/nelly-just-a-dream-lyrics.html

Hey, she was so easy to love. But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough.

I'm goin through it every time that I'm alone.
And now i'm missin, wishin she'd pick up the phone.
But she made a decision that she wanted to move one.
Cuz I was wrong.

And I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.
I said, if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

And I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

tired, not tired?

Does it occurs to you, that sometimes when you're alone in the middle of the night like this, you're thinking that no matter how much efforts you put on to something that you really care for, the result will still be the same?

You think that maybe this way will lead to happier outcome compared to another way, but then, the truth is nothing's changed, given that you are the only one that trying hard to make it work. And sometimes, I do feel like givin' it all up. Whatever happen, will happen.

You totally have no power in it. I guess someone was right then, "when something really matters to you, you'll give it all you got to make it work."

Pity me, as no one is listening to me, the tears that I cried in my heart. I'm tired. just plain tired.

qurban, anyone?

oh.. it is almost certain aku x balik raya haji ni. FIRST time ok, before ni x pnh x balik time raya.. sume raya aku balik. tp apekn daya, keadaan kewangan x mengizinkan :( I just went home early of this month, and mind you, I did spend lotss of money during that time! not to blame anyone, but me, sbb time tu ingt duit byk, skali pokai dh. what to do, overspending is my middle name *sigh*

so, this upcoming salary, I seriously need to manage my expenses carefully! because something huge is coming up! *tp tanak mention ape2, sbb xd itam putih lg* tanak dh jd mcm ni.. mampu ke tidak eh? I dunno.... just wait and see then..

it is still raining. I feel sad already, cos I do miss my mom :'(

by the way, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA KPD SELURUH MUSLIMIN & MUSLIMAT.

love?

These past few days byk kali kot rs x sihat. Pening, nk demam, sume ade. I guess it was the weather that caused these unhealthy changes kot. Tiap2 ari hujan, pastu panas yg btul2 panas. Agaknya aku kurang mnum air masak kot..bape byk kot aku tulih pun aku x tau...

Lately there are so many things that came across my mind. Unfortunately, they weren't nice things. Betul ke eh, the longer the time we know that someone, the level of love and passion will reduce gradually? Meaning that the time is inversely proportional with the love given.. Not to mention, the lack of attention and sume yg kte cakap, luahkan, ibarat masuk telinga kanan, kuar telinga kiri..

I'm still figuring this thing out. Hmm.. Agak sedih kalau bnde ni betul.

7 reasons why to-do list will keep you healthy.. aha!

I stumbled upon this one blog not long ago, about the importance of making to-do list. One trick is to separate your short-term and long-term to-do list, so kte x rs serabut sgt, and mane yg pnting dapat didahulukn. Another one is kte buat mane yg sng nk accomplish dulu, so that we'll feel like we've done things effiiciently, and we won't feel like a burden or something.

Pastu, erm... update list weekly or monthly, depends on our needly-basis. and bile kte rs as bnde yg org lain bleh tlg, do not hesitate to ask them to help you out ok. Remember, kte ni pn manusia biasa. x salah kalo kte mntk tlg org lain seskali ;).. Ok, the 7 reasons are:

1) Gain Control
2) Maximize brainpower --> need I say more? :)
3) Make tough decisions
4) Beat a slump
5) Find motivation
6) Achieve balance
7) Last but not least, you'll feel joy everyday!

well, this my own to-do list. bersepah kn? hehe.

p/s: you can search for more useful tips at online.prevention.com ;)
good luck!

sy syg kwn sy

hmm.. everyday we learn something new. along the process, we do make some mistakes. and we learn from it to further improve ourselves in the future. tp kan, dlm kte berkawan sehari2 ni, x dpt tidak, mest kte ad buat kwn kita tu trase, x sikit, byk.. kn? kn?

the same thing happened to me. I admit, I'm not perfect, and so are you. tp, itu bkn alasan utk kte tidak meng'improve' diri sndiri mnjdi kwn yg lebih baik. kn? In fact, I do try to make everyone around me happy, and xd yg sakit2 ati dek lawak yg kte rs x lawak pn sbnrnye.

So, bile agak2 nk kuarkn statement berani mati tu, kte kne pikir dulu, org lain trase ke x dgn ape yg kte nk ckp ni. one more thing, kalo nk gurau pn, ken la btmpat. ni x, time mmbe kte tgh stress dgn keje die yg x siap, sbb mistake org lain, kte ckp padan muke lak. mane x hangin satu bdn beb! bukan spnjg mase kte leh bgurau. silap2, truih putus kwn nnt, disebabkn mulut berapi kita tu. lame2 mne leh tahan beb!

so, definitely it will effect our friendship with that someone. My advise?

--> appreciate your friends and don't simply say things that might hurt 'em in any way. I believe you know your friends better, right?

--> Think before you speak. sounds so simple, and yet it's hard, isn't it?

last but not least, I love all my friendsssss... =)

cite Friends ni sgt best kn? They stick with each other through thick and thin.

tadaaa!!!

Credited to Goggle for images above.

gggrr..grrr...

eeee!! kdg2 kn, rs mrh dgn diri sndiri! mase before exam aritu, pnye la bsmgt nk buat sume bnde, tmasuk update blog la, edit gmba la, pastu dan2 nk tgok sume cte, x sdr diri ad 1 paper. tapiii.. bile dh abes exm, mak ai! pnye la mls nk buat sume bnde *sigh*

arini mmg bkn hr yg produktif utk sy. I just managed to wash my clothes, other than that? no improvement. pdhal dlm waiting list, byk kot bnde nk buat @__@ sy sgt malas. mengapakah? uwaa..

and then, when it was time to write somethin' on this blog, suddenly this one thought hit my mind, hard! "rs mcm x best je ape yg aku tulih kt blog." "ad ke org bc?" "omg, sume yg aku tulih ni, was it a crap?" lebih kurang mcm tu la aku pk. pastu trus x jd tulis. pdhal mase dlm kete, kt shopping mall, tgh mkn, tgh bjln, idea utk menulis sntiasa ad. tp tgn je yg xd kekuatan utk menaip. what the fish aishah??

renung2kan & slmt beramal :)

Salam semua..

fuh.. today I am extremely relieeveddd.. sbb exam dh abes.. yahoooo!! it was my pra syarat utk grad nnt, so I have to take this one paper yg bleh tahan jgk tahap kesusahan die.. lg pun, dh dekat setahun x amek any exam, so rs mcm x tau gila cane nk adapt dgn exam kali nih.. early sem dule, berazam utk dptkn A, tp smlm, berazam utk lulus pn dh cukup @_@..

Ok, we move to another completely different story. ;) As I was on my way back to Penang last Wednesday, kebetulan time tu dekat2 nk pukul 7, dgr Hot fm. Diorang ade segmen baru, Hot Fm Refleksi (kalo x silap la), where this segment is focusing more on muhasabah diri, which is good I think. dpt jgk dengar lagu Raihan yg dh lme x dgr tu, lg dr Maher Zain and lagu2 lain yg bersifat ketuhanan. and setiap kali abes 2 lagu, Prof Izi Ali yg tkenal dgn tagline "renung2kn, dan slmt beramal" tu, die akan bg tazkirah sikit.. this is what I've got so far during the journey to the north.. :D sorry kalau ad yg tersilap paham and maksud x smpi kt kamu ye... sy hnye manusia biasa ;)

1) jaga adab di rumah tetamu
- meaning that kalau kite g umah orang tu, jgn la duk sibuk2 tnye psl mkn ke, itu ke, ini ke.. kalau kite dh tau org tu x mmpu nk sediakn mknn yg best2, x yh gatai mulut nk request itu ini okay :p

2) berkumpul utk dpt kasih Allah
- instead of berkumpul utk lepak2 minum kopi, mengumpat ke, why not kita berkumpul di majlis2 ilmu, bertukar maklumat, insyaAllah kita akan dapat kasih dr Allah.. bukan dr manusia... jgn main2.. kasih Allah itulah yg paling agung.

3) berjihad di jalan Allah
- berjihad kt sni bukan brmksud kte g berperang mcm zaman Nabi dulu2, tp berjihad utk melawan hawa nafsu kita sndiri. nmpk senang, tp when it comes to practise, it is real hard, esp hawa napsu utk bersoping for a woman like me ;)

4) second chance
- do you believe in second chance? afraid not, because the greatest men amongst us also didn't succeed in their first attempt. They tried and tried and tried, and if it's not for them, xkn ad kot electricity, bulb, telephone and whatsoever technology that most of us couldn't live without. :)

5) mmbntu org lain tnpe mgharapkn balasan
- Allah swt suka & syg pd org yg bila die tlg org lain, xd mgharpkn ape2 balasan. lebih dr cukup kn? ;)