Travel

I've always wanted to travel all around the world. Dulu masa zaman sekolah menengah, I thought at the age of 25 and above, I must be a succesful woman, with a career, and of course, lots of money. Tapi di manakah ku sekarang? uhuk2..

Takpe, plan masih ttp ada. I should be happier since I'm married and no kids yet, at the moment (which people dh sibuk2 tnya ade isi ke belum , ade isi ke belum, since day 1 we got married, literally. Annoying ok!).. so, harap2 dapat la merealisasikan impian nak travel dengan husband nanti. Dulu konon2 nak belajar oversea and married some mat saleh..hahaha.. Guess He knows better, right?

Dream big, right? :)

The right amount of motivation for me

yes, I know I should never ever give up my dreams, just because people think I'm too slow, yes, I'll admit memang kali ni slow gila kot buat kerja.There's a turning point in your life where all of a sudden, the force is becoming lesser and lesser and you think you should stop. But no! Don't stop! Don't quit!

I tell you this, I will finish what I started a long time ago. Just because I'm late, doesn't mean I don't wanna do it. I just have to change the inertia. Ingat lagi tak inertia tu ape?

"inertia works both ways. An object at rest tends to stay at rest, but an object in motion tends to stay in motion.. and the problem is me, the object.."

I just have to find a way to make the move again.

Positive ! Positve Aishah! :-D

Penattttttt

When you thought that all the works are pretty much done, and apparently, they're not. Penat tak terkata. Sabarrrrr.. Sabar...

Baru duk rumah 2 tingkat macam ni dah penat sangat2 rasa mengemas. Lepas satu, satu.. Ni belum ada anak lagi... Time2 macam ni la teringat kat umi.. Pengorbanan seorang ibu memang takde tandingannya.

Lepas tu, time tengah ada mood nk writing, rasa macam nak buat semua benda other than writing! Sakit hati betul!

12.12.2012 or shoud I write 12.12.12?

Banyak betul org update status hari ni kat facebook regarding 12.12.12. Once in a lifetime je kot dpt witness tarikh ni.. As for me, 9 days from now cukup setahun ayah pergi meninggalkan kami semua. 21.12.2011. Mana mungkin aku lupa tarikh tu tu sampai bila-bila. The day that changed our lives forever, in almost every way.

Most of people pun sekarang sibuk dengan 21.12.12, konon2 akan berlaku bencana besar, as predicted by the Mayan people that our beloved earth will end at this very date. Tapi kita hanya lah hambaNya. Bila hari kiamat, hanya Dia yg tahu, Dia yg Maha Mengetahui segala-galanya. Kita sebagai hamba kene fikir cukup ke tidak amalan2 kita untuk bekalan di akhirat kelak.

Harap tuhan panjangkan umur aku sebab rasanya masih banyak yang perlu aku belajar, masih banyak kekurangan dalam diri ni. Most importantly, aku nak tolong ayah kat sana sebanyak yang mungkin. Ayah dah tak boleh nak buat apa2 dah, cuma kami sebagai anak-anak dia je yg boleh diharap untuk menghantar segala doa, pahala dan apa2 yang boleh diberi untuk ayah tersayang. Harap segala doa yg aku kirim untuk ayah, sampai tanpa ada sebarang halangan. Moga Allah permudahkan segalanya. Ini je cara untuk aku balas segala jasa ayah yg membesarkan aku dan tak pernah berkira walau sesen pun terhadap kami, anak-anak dia.Ada jugak rasa terkilan sikit di hati sebab tak dapat nak balas jasa ayah kt dunia ni. Tapi semua yg jadi ada hikmahnya kan. Allah perancang yang Maha Hebat.

"Apabila mati seorang anak adam itu, terputus semua hal kecuali 3 perkara, doa anak yang soleh, ilmu yang bermanfaat dan sedekah amal jariah."

And as for me, nak belajar menjadi seorang isteri yg solehah.. Moga aku & hubby akan sentiasa berada di atas landasan agama yg sebenar-benarnya. InsyaAllahh..

Sisa-sisa semangat yang masih ada..

Hmm, bila makin ramai org yg dh habis viva, anta 10 copies and stuff, ada masa2 rasa down giler kot, and I keep on wondering nape la tak abes2 lagi.. But there are times, bila rasa nak muhasabah diri, pandai sedapkan hati & bagi kata2 semangat kat diri sendiri.. "xpe la, lain org lain cara, lain pulak masalah.."

takpe2, aku masih ada kak yana, sara & kak aida sebagai peniup semangat untuk habiskan master ni. Hanya diorang yg tahu & paham the real problem of ours. Not to forget, my other half yg tak jemu2 bagi semangat untuk habiskan.

macam tulis penghargaan pulak.. haha!

till then...

Another dream...

Hari ni mimpi ayah lagi. First time ayah senyum sampai nampak gigi. Bulan ramadhan memang bulan yang penuh berkat kan. Mesti ayah balik rumah, tengok ktorg semua.. tak sabarnya nak balik..

Suddenly rasa rindu yang teramat kat ayah. Teringat lagi last puasa tahun lepas bukak puasa ramai2 kat Jeram. 

Ayah's pic ramadhan tahun lepas. Ayah & Savvy mmg tak dpt dipisahkan.. Kereta yg banyak berjasa kat aku, the same exact car yg hantar aku masuk USM..

Above all, aku redha ayah pergi. But I can't help it when sometimes I feel the sudden emotion that's so strong, undeniable, and painstakingly hard to avoid.

God has greater plans for all of us, doesn't He? He's always with me, I know..

New books for sale!

Hi y'all! I've been selling some new books at a bargain price. Do check it here http://mybooks-cottage.blogspot.com/

Do check it out! Will give the price lower than the one stated in the blog!

Thanks! :)

Selamat berpuasa semua!

Selamat berpuasa untuk semua umat Islam. Moga puasa kali ini memberi seribu satu nikmat dan kebaikan untuk kita semua. InsyaAllah...

Hmm, first puasa tanpa ayah tersayang. Tak tahu nak describe mcm mana perasaan ni. Sayu je rasa hati. Tiap2 hari tak pernah lupa kat ayah. Semalam mimpi ayah sampai nangis tersedu2.. Bangun tido je mata basah semacam.

Tapi takpe, tu semua dah ketentuan Dia. We cannot get all the good things at once. In order to get some, we may lose some. Aku redha.

And also not forgetting, counting the days to be a wife to Ahmad Naim. InsyaAllah nikah raya ketiga nanti (21/8/2012). Moga semua berjalan lancar. Aminnnn...

Perasaan? Tak tau nk describe macam mane jugak. Never thought it would be this soon. But in a way, rasa bagus jugak nikah time raya ni. Makes me and family have something to distract our mind off of something sad, which is first raya tanpa ayah. Kalau tak, mesti kitorang sedih, umi apetah lagi. Mungkin takkan ada masak2 yang meriah macam dulu. Hmm, like I said, you get some, you lose some.

Papepun, aku bersyukur. Terima kasih utk segala2nya Allah. Engkau Perancang Yang Maha Hebat. Kita sebagai manusia kadang2 lupa nak bersyukur dengan semua nikmat yang Dia bagi.

warm up's writing

Oh, lamanya abandon blog ni.. lotsa things have changed, well, at least for me.

- tears practically has become one of my bestest friend sejak ayah dah takde ni. Kalau dulu susah kot nak cuci mata naturally, tapi sekarang, I could cry like nobody's business.

- perasaan jd makin sensitif. Anything I do and see, mesti teringat kat ayah. I thought after a few months, it'll all be okay, but it's not that easy. Damn true what they say, "you don't know what you've got til it's gone"

- most of the times, you don't get to tell other people of how you really feel, even to the ones you love the most. Bukan sbb diorg tak memahami, but it's better to keep them for yourself. Nature works that way, I guess? So, yeah, most of the times, menangis sorang2 kat bilik, mengadu kt Dia..tenang sangat hati. Oh, betapa beruntungnya aku jd org Islam... I love you Allah. Forgive me for all of my wrongdoings. I know I asked too many forgiveness already, and yet I still make the same mistakes over and over. :(

- Good things are bound to happen. And I hope that all of them will go as planned.If Allah permits, insyaAllah.

ayah 2

I miss him.. On this beautiful Friday, I really really miss him...

I'm all adult now, but deep inside, I'm still my daddy's little girl. There are just too many things that we haven't done together yet, and too many things I haven't done for him....

I miss you, ayah...

Aishah rindu sangat2 kat ayah...

ayah

today marks the 2nd months of my dad leaving us, leaving the world menuju ke alam barzakh. And yet, I feel like it was only happening 2 hours ago.

Memang redha, but put yourself in my shoes. Pemergian yg sgt mengejut, akan mengambil masa yg lama untuk sembuh, compare dengan kita tengok dia sakit depan mata.. Apepun, hidup perlu diteruskan.. Aku redha dgn ketentuan Allah.. Dia perancang yang Maha Hebat. Ujian ni sangatlah sedikit kalau nk dibandingkan dengan ujian2 yg diturunkan untuk Nabi Muhammad s.a.w dan para sahabat kn? Someday, somehow, kita semua akan ke sana juga.

Apa perasaan korang kalau terjumpa dgn kenderaan yg sama that took away the life of your loved ones? yes, pagi semalam ternampak lori yg langgar arwah ayah kat sini, nibong tebal. rasa macam jantung ngan masa terbenti sekejap. pegang stering kete pun macam tak pegang dah..

rasa macam nak turun dari kete pastu nk pi cakap kt drebar tu.."lori ni yg langgar bapak saya, tau x??!!" tapi tu semua angan2 mat jenin je..kalau pikir2 pun, lori tu x salah.. ayah mmg tbe2 tjatuh, and the lorry was there, as destined by God. bukan dia yg langgar ayah ke ape, cuma badan ayah terkena skit kt tayar lori tu..

bila tngok badan ayah, rasa macam x percaya ayah kene langgar dgn lori, sebab luar ALHAMDULILLAH sempurna sgt2.. aku bersyukur tak terhingga kat tuhan. kepala sikit pun x pecah, koyak or ape2.. cuma kt dagu ayah je ada luka kecik.. cuma dalaman ayah yg mmg teruk & x dpt diselamatkan..

selalu jugak mimpi ayah datang, senyum2 pastu ayah pergi.. adik ada mimpi ayah jugak, adik tanya mcm mana boleh eksiden, tapi ayah senyap je, smbil senyum2 ayah geleng kepala..

terasa memang berat sgt2 dugaan ni, separuh semangat hilang terus. kalau dulu, balik rumah rasa sgt2 excited nk jmpa ayah, jumpa umi.. tapi skrg, bila balik drive sorg2, perasaan rs lemah, lesu.. rumah tu pun mcm x bermaya sekarang.. rasa kosong sangat, besar sangat rumah tu...

al-fatihah utkmu ayah. insyaAllah satu hati nanti jika diizinkan tuhan, kita semua akan jumpa di sana... I miss you, I love youu.. so much! tak puas rasanya cium ayah banyak2 hari tu.. if and only if, I could spend one more day with you.....

ni la lori yg langgar ayah, tahu lori ni sebab aku ingat plat no dia.. sampai mati akan aku ingat. tp sgt2 x sangka bleh tjmpa kt sini, masa otw hantar eka pi usm main campus..

tick tock the clock is ticking

I'm missing this blog already. Lots of stories to be told, but I'm not sure it'd be worthy enough to be written here. For example:

1) I'm penniless, up until this moment.
2) my life is turning upside down, in a biggg way!
3) I don't know if I can ever finish what I started before. Can I?

wake up call

sometimes, in this life, we need something powerful that will wake us up, so that we can stop dreaming about things.

yes, kenyataan itu mungkin pedih, tapi itu realiti. sebanyak mana kita menidakkan, selagi tu kita akan kerap kali disakiti.

so, wake up! bepijak di bumi yg nyata. redha dengan ketentuanNya.

afterall, tak semua benda yg kita nak sesuai untuk kita. Tuhan tau ape yg terbaik. Just wait and see.

So, sy nak berhenti berharap sejak 17/11/2011. All I want now is to be content with the life that I have right now, at this moment.

lost.

sometimes I wonder, does life being unfair to me or is it the other way around? Is it me? or is it me that is lack of planning, and thus, things didn't go as planned? or is it me who didn't know how to grab things at its best? and thus, I'm falling apart?

I don't know. All I know now is I feel lost. I feel something is missing. I feel distance. I feel hopeless, I feel nothing and something at the same time. I feel like I'm wasted my precious times. I feel like I'm the one who should be blamed.

Oh Allah, only You know what's best for me. Forgive me for all of my wrongdoings, forgive me..

Twilight: Breaking Dawn Part 1 soundtracks

The time is finally around the corner! Sangat tidak sabar utk tengok the next series of Twilight, The Breaking Dawn Part 1! It'll be released here in Malaysia on 24th November.. I thought of watching it more than once, boleh gitu?

Video klip utk lagu Bruno Mars, It Will Rain dah keluar which is the first soundtrack for this movie. Lagi satu lagu Christina Perri, A Thousand Years. Both of 'em are equally good I think.


That girl in this video? I bet lots of girls are super jealous of her!




Written by Christina herself, not to mention she's a huge fan of Twilight! I wish I could write, you know.. songs, stories, doesn't matter as long as I can produce something, I hope someday I would!


For all the Twilighters out there, you know who you are.. happy watching for this upcoming movie. It's reaching the ending, finally...

credit to google for the image.

kaki & kerusi

what is it with me & the chair? minggu ni je dah 3x kaki langgar kerusi.. and this one is the worst! kuku nk tercabut..! memang selalu macam ni.. dulu masa undergrad dah kene, sampai bengkok jari kaki. 4 hari lepas kene, hari ni kene lagi.. dang!

some people talking about making something memorable today, I guess I did mine already!

but hey, memang tarikh hari ni cantik, tapi tak perlu taksub sangat okay, it's just a number. Jangan sampai akidah kita tergugat.

blog revamp 2.0

how's my layout so far? rasa macam fresh pulak bila dah update layout nih. I've been thinking of changing it long time ago, tapi takde masa.. (buat2 busy). So, bila dah tukar layout, rasa semangat sikit nak upload story baru.

I'm home now! Extend cuti sempena raya Haji. Rasa macam lama sangat tak stay lama2 kat rumah, dengan harapan I'll get some sort of "semangat" bila kat kampus nanti. Up until one point, rasa give up sangat2. Tapi, mesti kuatkan semangat! Sekarang dah takde supervisor around untuk push and keep me on the time line.. Semua kene arrange & buat sendiri.

Harap2 dapat lah gaji bulan 12 nanti. I've been penniless sejak mid August hari tu. Seriously, memang sangat2 hopeless sekarang. Harap2 tuhan permudahkan segalanya. Kat rumah boleh tengok muka budak anak buah, hilang sekejap rasa risau, susah hati, stress dan segala macam perasaan negatif tu. Nak recharge balik the energy, and hopefully when the time comes, I'll be filled with lots and lots of semangat! Gambatte!

Kat umah ni kejenye asyik mendonlod cerita. Sekarang mode tengah carik balik cite2 lama yg menjadi kegemaran masa zaman remaja dulu. cewah! cite With Love, Ice World, The Cave of The Golden Rose. Buat stok tengok sampai muntah kat kampus nanti.

tengok ni masa umur 13 tahun, and all of my friends thought that Yutaka Takenouchi is the most hottest guy in the entire milky way! haha.. memang suka dia sangat2 lah! lagi2 time tu internet baru nak berkembang, memang sesuai dengan cerita nih kisah pasal email.

tengok ni sebab Yutaka berlakon, again!

this one memang satu fenomena yg dasat dulu. Tak silap masa sekolah rendah. Satu family memang akan tunggu2 cite ni kt tv2 dulu. Skang ada tayang balik kt tv9 kan, but never got the chance to watch it.

thanks to google for the images!

entry after midnight..

everytime I look at those pictures, my heart's aching. I know I shouldn't feel that way, but I just can't help it..

That should be me.... Ironically, I keep on repeating the song by Justin Bieber, That Should Be Me... aha!

on the other hands, I think I'm getting good at doing things consistently, except for a few minor things that I should really work my butt off! Giddy up lazy ass!

and I'm superliking this statement at the moment, "do not wait for things to happen, you MAKE them happen!" and yes, I did make 'em happen! Abaikan saja mereka2 yg suka menunggu bagai bulan jatuh ke riba itu! I hope I'm not givin' up on anything, anything at all, yet..

p/s: rest in peace Marco Simoncelli.. he died during the race at Sepang GP circuit, at such a young age. That reminds me, ajal tak mengenal usia...

thing I would love to do

kadang2 kan, bila tengok people my age dah pegi travel merata tempat, it doesn't matter whether it's for holiday trip @ work trip, I do feel a tad jealous of 'em. I have this big, massive and huge dream to go travel one fine day. Dulu ingat nak belajar kat oversea, tapi tak kesampaian lah pulak kan, so I think for the holiday is good enough. Memang jeles tengok member2 rapat yg dah merasa pegi merata tempat, or at least they reside somewhere other than Malaysia. It's been my ultimate dream to go all around the world, you know.

So, positive thinking, maybe bukan rezeki sy lagi. I'm still stuck in USM, studying. But this is my choice, though. Bak kate dia, kalau sy dah kerja sekarang, maybe dah kahwin @ ade anak pun.. hee~ So, I just have to go through with this, right? tak lame dah pun...

Takpe lah kan, maybe rezeki utk travel tu akan tiba lepas kahwin? So that bleh travel bersama husband tersayang. Mungkin tuhan tu tahu kalau sy travel before kahwin, ade kemungkinan besar sy taknak balik2 sebab nak carik boipren matsaleh? hahahaha...
Salahkan kumpulan Westlife, lagi2 si Shane tu ye, sebab die lah dulu sy kunun2 tanak carik org Melayu jdik bf, last2 dapat jugak dengan org T'ganu, pure Malay lagi youu! harap2 berkekalan... aminnnn....

The bottom line is, God knows what's best for you. Be patient, the time of your life will come eventually. Dia Maha Adil.

p/s: It's been 4 years, syg, can you believe it? but I don't feel like 4 years, it seems like only 4 months since I've first met you. That's a good sign, right? I can't get enough of you, yet..

nak beli beg tak?

hi! just a quick post only.

anyone interested in buying the bag below?

i bought it last week for RM46 termasuk posting cost, but I'm gonna let it go for RM35 only, termasuk posting cost.

Reason for sell? ---> simply because I cannot find any outfit to match it with.. jadi sayang kalau tak pakai. It looks nice, though.

Width: 33CM
High: 25CM (handle below)
Handle High: 13CM


Email me: shanegirl04@yahoo.com

the colour is exactly the same as above, I can assure you.

p/s: credit to ireen.kieron for the picture.