Another dream...

Hari ni mimpi ayah lagi. First time ayah senyum sampai nampak gigi. Bulan ramadhan memang bulan yang penuh berkat kan. Mesti ayah balik rumah, tengok ktorg semua.. tak sabarnya nak balik..

Suddenly rasa rindu yang teramat kat ayah. Teringat lagi last puasa tahun lepas bukak puasa ramai2 kat Jeram. 

Ayah's pic ramadhan tahun lepas. Ayah & Savvy mmg tak dpt dipisahkan.. Kereta yg banyak berjasa kat aku, the same exact car yg hantar aku masuk USM..

Above all, aku redha ayah pergi. But I can't help it when sometimes I feel the sudden emotion that's so strong, undeniable, and painstakingly hard to avoid.

God has greater plans for all of us, doesn't He? He's always with me, I know..

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Selamat berpuasa semua!

Selamat berpuasa untuk semua umat Islam. Moga puasa kali ini memberi seribu satu nikmat dan kebaikan untuk kita semua. InsyaAllah...

Hmm, first puasa tanpa ayah tersayang. Tak tahu nak describe mcm mana perasaan ni. Sayu je rasa hati. Tiap2 hari tak pernah lupa kat ayah. Semalam mimpi ayah sampai nangis tersedu2.. Bangun tido je mata basah semacam.

Tapi takpe, tu semua dah ketentuan Dia. We cannot get all the good things at once. In order to get some, we may lose some. Aku redha.

And also not forgetting, counting the days to be a wife to Ahmad Naim. InsyaAllah nikah raya ketiga nanti (21/8/2012). Moga semua berjalan lancar. Aminnnn...

Perasaan? Tak tau nk describe macam mane jugak. Never thought it would be this soon. But in a way, rasa bagus jugak nikah time raya ni. Makes me and family have something to distract our mind off of something sad, which is first raya tanpa ayah. Kalau tak, mesti kitorang sedih, umi apetah lagi. Mungkin takkan ada masak2 yang meriah macam dulu. Hmm, like I said, you get some, you lose some.

Papepun, aku bersyukur. Terima kasih utk segala2nya Allah. Engkau Perancang Yang Maha Hebat. Kita sebagai manusia kadang2 lupa nak bersyukur dengan semua nikmat yang Dia bagi.

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Oh, lamanya abandon blog ni.. lotsa things have changed, well, at least for me.

- tears practically has become one of my bestest friend sejak ayah dah takde ni. Kalau dulu susah kot nak cuci mata naturally, tapi sekarang, I could cry like nobody's business.

- perasaan jd makin sensitif. Anything I do and see, mesti teringat kat ayah. I thought after a few months, it'll all be okay, but it's not that easy. Damn true what they say, "you don't know what you've got til it's gone"

- most of the times, you don't get to tell other people of how you really feel, even to the ones you love the most. Bukan sbb diorg tak memahami, but it's better to keep them for yourself. Nature works that way, I guess? So, yeah, most of the times, menangis sorang2 kat bilik, mengadu kt Dia..tenang sangat hati. Oh, betapa beruntungnya aku jd org Islam... I love you Allah. Forgive me for all of my wrongdoings. I know I asked too many forgiveness already, and yet I still make the same mistakes over and over. :(

- Good things are bound to happen. And I hope that all of them will go as planned.If Allah permits, insyaAllah.

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I miss him.. On this beautiful Friday, I really really miss him...

I'm all adult now, but deep inside, I'm still my daddy's little girl. There are just too many things that we haven't done together yet, and too many things I haven't done for him....

I miss you, ayah...

Aishah rindu sangat2 kat ayah...