rindu rasa nak menaip kt blog ni.. banyak kali dah masuk dan tekan butang "create new post", but after a while, tak sampai satu baris menaip, dah takde mood @ tak tahu nak macam mana nak teruskan penulisan tu.. adakah itu tanda2 orang yg super malas?
There are too many things to write, about everything actually. But then, I don't have the courage to write them all up here. Instead, memujuk hati sendiri dengan menaip di handphone kesayangan.
I'm back in Penang! The raya fun's over already, and it's time to face the reality. It was true, though, about people saying that the closer you are to finish your study, the more obstacles will come! True enough!
As for me, the problems are:
1) ada lagi satu sampel je untuk finish grinding, then that one damn day, the machine stopped abruptly! bila kita dah selalu guna benda yg sama tiap2 hari, for sure you'll notice the difference, right? rupa2nya the timing belt putus! adding to my "excitement", pak ngah orang kuat lab cakap belt tu tak pernah putus since the machine first came here! what a nice timing, eh belt?
2) the pressure!
- of cos, siapa yg tanak habes cepat kan? but, when one party keeps on pushing you to finish a.s.a.p, lagi rasa tak boleh nak buat!
3) the income
-yes, the risk of being a student, is money. I'm not a scholarshio holder, cuma all my yuran are paid by the gomen, the Bajet Mini one. elaun bulanan guna geran. So, bila geran ada mslh, memang takkan dapat duit.
korang boleh argue, ala, setakat student, ape sangat la nak bayar? I've my own responsibility too, things utk dibayar bulan2:
- bil hp
-kereta
-bilik
- makan minum?
- ptptn
so, jangan ingat kami student mak ayah still tanggung. FYI, dah lama kot tak mintak duit dari mak ayah. susah senang memang pandai2 sendiri.
just recently kene pindah ke bilik baru yg a lot bigger, but then we have to pay 3 months deposit + sewa sebulan, lebih kurang 500++ kene bayar. boleh bayangkan tak mcm mana? elaun bulanan memang tak banyak.. luckily my roomate sudi guna duit dia dulu. and I'm very much thankful for that.
raya haritu dengan tak bergaji, memang super gloomy sebab dapat tolong umi ayah sikit je. baju raya lagi la, satu pun tak beli. just recycle yg tahun2 lepas punya.
kalau pikir2 balik, memang akan think twice @ a bit regret sebab I chose this way. But then, it's my choice, my responsibility!
The education may be bitter, but the fruits are sweet - as one of my fb friend said.
I may not reach for the fruit yet, but I must not give up!
Starting from page 365, my eyes keeps on blurring by the tears. Sedih sangat baca part ayah-anak when the father tries really hard to tell his daughter and son about the terminal cancer.. Tiba2 teringat kat ayah sendiri.. 
and the tears finally streaming down my face when I was reading page 407.
And it's more like maintaining this new activity for as far as I can, mind you. Pray for us.. 