12.12.2012 or shoud I write 12.12.12?

Banyak betul org update status hari ni kat facebook regarding 12.12.12. Once in a lifetime je kot dpt witness tarikh ni.. As for me, 9 days from now cukup setahun ayah pergi meninggalkan kami semua. 21.12.2011. Mana mungkin aku lupa tarikh tu tu sampai bila-bila. The day that changed our lives forever, in almost every way.

Most of people pun sekarang sibuk dengan 21.12.12, konon2 akan berlaku bencana besar, as predicted by the Mayan people that our beloved earth will end at this very date. Tapi kita hanya lah hambaNya. Bila hari kiamat, hanya Dia yg tahu, Dia yg Maha Mengetahui segala-galanya. Kita sebagai hamba kene fikir cukup ke tidak amalan2 kita untuk bekalan di akhirat kelak.

Harap tuhan panjangkan umur aku sebab rasanya masih banyak yang perlu aku belajar, masih banyak kekurangan dalam diri ni. Most importantly, aku nak tolong ayah kat sana sebanyak yang mungkin. Ayah dah tak boleh nak buat apa2 dah, cuma kami sebagai anak-anak dia je yg boleh diharap untuk menghantar segala doa, pahala dan apa2 yang boleh diberi untuk ayah tersayang. Harap segala doa yg aku kirim untuk ayah, sampai tanpa ada sebarang halangan. Moga Allah permudahkan segalanya. Ini je cara untuk aku balas segala jasa ayah yg membesarkan aku dan tak pernah berkira walau sesen pun terhadap kami, anak-anak dia.Ada jugak rasa terkilan sikit di hati sebab tak dapat nak balas jasa ayah kt dunia ni. Tapi semua yg jadi ada hikmahnya kan. Allah perancang yang Maha Hebat.

"Apabila mati seorang anak adam itu, terputus semua hal kecuali 3 perkara, doa anak yang soleh, ilmu yang bermanfaat dan sedekah amal jariah."

And as for me, nak belajar menjadi seorang isteri yg solehah.. Moga aku & hubby akan sentiasa berada di atas landasan agama yg sebenar-benarnya. InsyaAllahh..

Selamat berpuasa semua!

Selamat berpuasa untuk semua umat Islam. Moga puasa kali ini memberi seribu satu nikmat dan kebaikan untuk kita semua. InsyaAllah...

Hmm, first puasa tanpa ayah tersayang. Tak tahu nak describe mcm mana perasaan ni. Sayu je rasa hati. Tiap2 hari tak pernah lupa kat ayah. Semalam mimpi ayah sampai nangis tersedu2.. Bangun tido je mata basah semacam.

Tapi takpe, tu semua dah ketentuan Dia. We cannot get all the good things at once. In order to get some, we may lose some. Aku redha.

And also not forgetting, counting the days to be a wife to Ahmad Naim. InsyaAllah nikah raya ketiga nanti (21/8/2012). Moga semua berjalan lancar. Aminnnn...

Perasaan? Tak tau nk describe macam mane jugak. Never thought it would be this soon. But in a way, rasa bagus jugak nikah time raya ni. Makes me and family have something to distract our mind off of something sad, which is first raya tanpa ayah. Kalau tak, mesti kitorang sedih, umi apetah lagi. Mungkin takkan ada masak2 yang meriah macam dulu. Hmm, like I said, you get some, you lose some.

Papepun, aku bersyukur. Terima kasih utk segala2nya Allah. Engkau Perancang Yang Maha Hebat. Kita sebagai manusia kadang2 lupa nak bersyukur dengan semua nikmat yang Dia bagi.

entry after midnight..

everytime I look at those pictures, my heart's aching. I know I shouldn't feel that way, but I just can't help it..

That should be me.... Ironically, I keep on repeating the song by Justin Bieber, That Should Be Me... aha!

on the other hands, I think I'm getting good at doing things consistently, except for a few minor things that I should really work my butt off! Giddy up lazy ass!

and I'm superliking this statement at the moment, "do not wait for things to happen, you MAKE them happen!" and yes, I did make 'em happen! Abaikan saja mereka2 yg suka menunggu bagai bulan jatuh ke riba itu! I hope I'm not givin' up on anything, anything at all, yet..

p/s: rest in peace Marco Simoncelli.. he died during the race at Sepang GP circuit, at such a young age. That reminds me, ajal tak mengenal usia...

I wish I was....

sometimes, I wish I was better at doing things accordingly..

I wish I could manage my time based on my priorities.. (sometimes I did success, but most of the time, I didn't! there was just too much distractions nowadays!)

I wish I could be as good as I was before.

yeah, things are supposed to make you doing your works / chores a lot more faster & easier, but then again, you've to admit the downsides as well.. *sigh*

I should stop from moaning and sulking, right? It won't help me at all. Instead, I should just straightaway doin' things I was supposed to do!

yeah, you go girl!

be patient

come to think of it, dlm hidup ni tak semua bnda yg kita nak konpem akan dapat. as you grow older, you'll think more of the positive side, even though sometimes you can't seem to deal with the fact that.. "nape org lain bleh dapat?" or "nape naseb aku je yg malang?"..

it is not malang or bad lcuk actually. it's more like you have to wait for the right time for it to happen. ye lah kan, bile tgok orang lain dapat or ade bnda yg kita nak sangat2 tu, mcm2 bnde buruk @ negatif kita akan pikir. up until one point, we'll feel like a loser, totally loser! tapiii... mmg betul org cakap, "knowledge is power!".. and how do you get that knowledge? of course from reading, reading and reading... continuously!

basically, learning is a process that you've to go through for the rest of your life. when you read something or anything at all, trust me, you'll find some of the reading is very, extremely useful for your own life. it'll be like... "ohhh, patut lah rezeki aku untuk buat bnda ni tak sampai lagi, sebab bila baca bnde ni, rasa diri sndiri pun tak ready.."

above all, God knows what is the best for you.. Dia x bagi bnda yg kite nak bukan sebab kite nasib malang ke ape, tapi sebab Dia tahu exactly things yg kita mampu buat atau tidak.. and kita dah ready ke belum..

so, be patient & bersyukurlah dgn kehidupan anda sekarang. there's always hope on the other side. you just have to wait for the right moment for it to strike!

p/s: gambar xd kene mengena dgn post di atas.