Monday, December 27, 2010

isnin dtg lagi

hari sabtu & ahad yg lepas merupakan hari yg agak busy for me. my parents come all the way from our hometown sbb nk anta my little sis back to usm in penang, cuti sem dah berakhir, smbil tu jln2 carik mkn.. but due to the short trip, cume smpt bwk g 2 tmpt mkn shj.

and as for today? sgt bersemangat utk review balik my resolutions throughout this year, and I'm planning to make a brand new, updated list for next year! mane2 yg x tercapai akan dilkasanakan pd tahun dpn, insyaAllah.. harap2 tahun dpn tahun yg baik dan great for me to finish my master. aminn...

ok, ni update sgla mcm fail & kertas atas meja nih..

till next time.. :)

Friday, December 24, 2010

what I did best when I couldn't sleep

there was this one time where I couldn't sleep at all. so, all I did was the thing that any of girls in this world do their best.. shopping!! hehe.. dgn x malunye aku pegi ke bilik one of my labmate, kak yana.. her roomate which happened to have a sis living in Japan, menjual baju2 & aksesori yg menarik all the way from Japan. and bile dh duk situ, each and every baju yg die jual aku belek2, godek2, even before ni dh tgok, godek, belek byk kali... sj tgok2 balik kot2 ad yg terbekenan time tu... but sadly... nothing that captured my eyes.. :(

so, beralih ke aksesori.. die jual gelang, phone strap & hairband.. sume design cool2 and chick style. belek pnye belek, I finally chose these 3 items.. total money spent? RM7 only.. :)

siap dpt free paper beg kaler pink lg yoouu..

yg dpt free tu belah kanan, yg belah kiri tu from Etude House, aritu ad beli make up fixer. not bad jgk Etude House ni.. but I prefer to shop at Elianto.. smpi bile pegi kdg2 dh x tahu nk beli ape.. heh.

till next time ;)

personaliti si April

I got this one kt satu mjlh, tapi memang x ingt ape nama magz tersebut. each issue they will feature this according to month. and since bulan sy lahir adlh April, sy telah salin satu copy dr mjlh tersebut.. sila tgok.. ;)

1) sangat aktif dan dinamik.. (ye ke? skang rs mcm agak lemau je @_@)

2) cpt bertindak dan cepat membuat keputusan, tapiii cepat menyesal.. *malu2*

3) sgt menarik dan pandai manjakan diri

4) punya daya mental yg sgt kuat

5) suka diberi perhatian.. erk?

6) sgt diplomatik (pndai memujuk).. agak la.. :D

7) pandai berkawan

8) pndai menyelesaikan mslh org

9) sgt berani dan tiada perasaan takut

10) pengasih & penyayang

11) sopan santun dan pemurah

12) emosi cepat terusik dan perlu belajar utk kawal emosi

13) ada potensi utk berdendam. don't mess with me! hahaha *gelak jahat*

14) agresif dan suka adventure

15) kuat daya ingatan

16) gerak hati yg sgt kuat .. definitely!

17) pndai mendorong diri sendiri & memotivasikan org lain

18) berpenyakit di sekitar kepala & dada.. wah, kne bhati2 ni..

hmm, dlm byk2 list di atas, x dpt dinafikan byk yg relate dgn diri sndiri. tapi, apepun kite sndiri yg perlu mengubah nasib dan attitude diri kita.. perkara di atas hnyalah guide utk kte improve to be a better person.

and if I'm not mistaken, Dr Fadzilah Kamsah ad tulis artikel pasal personaliti diri. I think this one might be his writing. Correct me if I'm wrong okayh.

gtg. take care.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Back to December

I am, at the moment, in love with this song from Taylor Swift, "Back to December".. every time I listen to the song, it gives me goosebumps, perhaps for the strong lyrics and in a way, it relates to my previous life also.. check out the lyrics below. By the way, Taylor is one of the most talented artist so far, not to mention she wrote all the lyrics herself. Way to go girl!

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life, tell me how's your family
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier then ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why

'Cause the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to december all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to december, turn around and make it all right and
I go back to december all the time

These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn't call
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side,
Realized I loved you in the fall
And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to december all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to december, turn around and change my own mind and
I go back to december all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night,
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

But this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to december
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine and
I go back to december, turn around and make it alright and
I go back to december, turn around and change my own mind and
I go back to december all the time

All the time

overall, this song is about her wishes to go back to december to make everyhting right for that person she once loved, and there has been a rumour that Taylor wrote this song as an apology for Taylor Lautner where they used to be together back in 2009 I guess. Frankly speaking, I love to see them both together. Don't you? ;) and Taylor is a nice boy.. well, who doesnt love to see him shirtless in New Moon,right? hehe.

As for me, I learned a lesson, the hard way. and yeah, I wish to go back to say my apology to the person I once hurt, and like they say, what goes around comes around. The same thing happened to me. I got hurt way too deep and it effected me a lot! It got me thinking for a long time that maybe I deserved that kind of punishment, for I did the same to other person.

how I wish to say I'm sorry for everything that I've done in the past to him..

I'm happy now and I wish him for the same too.

and as for the person who once broke my heart, I do wish to go back to punch him in the face, hard!

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

mixed up felings

ok, I don't mean to exaggerate. but, siyesly rs lain sgt ad rumet ni.. maybe sbb dh agak lame kot aku duk single, and I'm getting used to living alone in this room, which I like a lot.. and then, someday, out of the blue, someone I barely knew, was about to be my roomate. seronok ad jgk, sbb dh xd la tkot kalo blok ni sunyi ke ape.. tp, in a way, rs agak sedih.

ok, tu je nk luahkn mlm ni.

Friday, December 17, 2010

rumet baru

hari ni dikejutkn dgn satu berita yg ermm.. excited jgk, tp lebih kpd x syiokk.. i got new rumate! so, bile dpt tau pg td kat lab, kelam kabut balik bilik sbb yesterday I just washed all my clothes and you can imagine all of them hanging and laying everywhere, literally everywhere ok. :p balik2, barang si dia dh ad kt katil, tp tuan x nmpk lagi.. so, kms2 sume and bju2 tu letak atas katil je..

perasaan? nk kate excited x sgt, sbb dh biase duk sorang, rs best pulak. xd kne set rules or whatsoever, bilik pun kte leh stylekn ukut citarasa sndiri.. (x la style mane pun).. sedih pulak sbb x rs spacious cm dulu..

harap2 si dia ok and bleh sekepala. oh, she's older than me by the way. 26.

Monday, December 13, 2010

1 perkara baru psl kawen

pagi td pegi ke airport in Penang sbb one my friend, Zati mntk teman die anta husband die ke sana. she just got married last November ago. so, kira ni first time berpisah dgn hubby die yg keje kt Sarawak.

On our way back, there were lots of things that we talked about. maklum la, sejak lepas kawen, mmg xd chance nk jmpe dia and borak personally sbb we were busy with our own works. She just moved in to a new house, so mmg bz lg la dari aku.

Dalam byk2 bnde yg ktorg borak, ad satu bnda ni yg mmg aku x kn lupa, and bila ingt balik, rs nk tersengih je.. hehe.. die ckp lebih kurang mcm ni.. "bile ko da kawen nanti, ape yg ko expect dr dia mmg totally different! x kisah la ko dh kenal dia 4-5 tahun before kawen, tp bile lps kawen, definitely ko akan rs mcm die org yg baru ko kenal!" hahahah.. the reason of me laughing is because before ni, mmg ad bace kt mane tah, bila kita kwen, ad 110% lg bnde psl dia yg kte rs kte dh tau, but we are totally WRONG! byk lg bnde psl si dia yg kita akan figure out lps kwen nnt. *wink*

I guess the article was right! sbb dh jd kt one of my closest friend. And as always, like any other newly wed, pasti die akan ckp cmni, "best kahwin! cpt2 sket shah!" hahaha... mmg sy pun x saba nk figure out bnde baru pasal bakal hubby. moga dipermudahkan segalanya.. insyaAllah.

this is the pic taken on the way balik td. sgt sejuk skrg sbb tiap2 ari hujan, siyesly xd mood nk buat ape2 other than berhibernasi sahaja! mari melawat kampus sy! ;)

my nuffnang.. sila abaikan jumlah itu. kegembiraan yg pnting.

sbrnye dh lame nk tunjuk bnde nih, tp asik lupe dan malas sj.. the last few weeks mmg aku agak rajin berblogwalking, dgn harapan org akan dtg ke blog kita and dpt la sket earning dr nuffnang. sbb tgok bile org cite pasal dpt duit dr nuffnang, looks cool! org dtg blog kita, smbil bace, smbil kelik. cume dgn syarat, kte kene la rajin berjalan ke blog org.. well, long story short, mase balik uma last week, I did not online as usual, as I was busy helping my mother and being a camerawoman for the mjlis kenduri cukur jambul. and then, tbe2 rs terbukak ati nk log in to nuffnag. and i was surprised!

at last! dpt jgk earning. yee, sy tau, nilai itu cume 25 sen shj. tp amat bernilai bg aku sbb before ni duk tgok, asik 0.00. pastu x d la ramai sgt pun visitor kt blog aku. kat facebook pun, aku x letak link blog ni, for personal reasons. at least, I can be more honest writing here, compared to facebook. agak2 sakit hati dgn si polan, bleh luahkn kt sni, sbb chances utk si polan bace blog aku ni agak tipis. hihi..

tp sedih.. mngu ni mmg x blogwalking lgsg. bz dgn lab, pastu byk bnde kne pk, smpi kt blog dh ade berpuluh draf yg dh basi I guess.

so, lps ni nk kne rajin skit... :D

ok, itu saja. ;)

Sunday, December 12, 2010

hmm.. lala. lulu.. lalu?~~

ok, siyesly, since yesterday I feel damn lazy! nk buat semua bnde x kene. bile dh start wat bnde tu, stop kejap, pk nk wat bnde lain. bile dh buat bnde lain tu pulak, br nk start teringt bnde lain yg lain pulak yg nk dibuat. haish. x bleh jd nih.. parah gk galo dibiar lame2.. sume kje x jd. mati la aku! hahaha..

well, not much has happened since I last updated this blog. There are, by the way, a few thoughts and mixed up feelings inside my mind. I've been fighting with my own feelings about lots of things. I think it's right as they say, 'you don't know what you've got til it's gone." ok, ni xd kaitan dgn sape2 or dgn relationship aku. everything's ok, cumenye byk bermonolog dgn diri sndiri.

ni la natijahnye kalo duk sorg2 kot? hahaha.. it's either you end up bring more peace in your life, or you feel like a crazy person sometime, sbb asik duk sorg2 je.. nk g jln2 bilik org malas. sume malas,. bongooksss betul!

Thursday, December 2, 2010

I feel good today

Today I feel quite enthusiastic! I woke up with a smile on my face (ok, that's a lie) :p, and I already got my to-do list for today!

And yes, I do believe in what God has in store for us. Everything is going to be OK, I reckon. I just need to be patient and have more interest in what I'm currently doing.

Oh, suddenly the mood to read journals and speed up my lab work has emerged back! I feel delighted! :D

p/s: Ben Bradshaw nk dtg sini. Ad sesape beminat nk jmpe die? hehehe..

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

real purpose of my blog

Sometimes, I forget the sole purpose of this blog, that is to share the ups and downs of my life. bila rs sedih, rs happy, terasa, or ape2 rs la.. I was too eager to write something that I feel most people would love to read, but in the end, I got lost! I should have listened to what my heart says, i guess. pedulikn la iklan2 tu sume, or perasaan utk mengimpress org lain dgn my writing.

Just like today, I feel sad, sbb bnde yg aku paling nak skrg ni, rs mcm x tercapai je. It's getting farther away as each day goes by. I tried really hard to get that thing, as it was my very first time I felt soooooooo into it! so, bile sume bnde yg spttnye jd senang, tbe2 x jd seperti yg dirancang, hanya kerana kesilapan org lain. dan org lain tu x bkn adlh family kita sndiri. so how should I react? mad? sad? angry? fury? revenge? rs mcm x patut kn rs mcm tu dgn family sndiri.

tapi..... kalo dh sll sgt jd mcm tu.. apo nk dikato? when everything that you own and you want, and one of your closest family pun nk jgk mcm tu.. ape kate org, copycat kn? and obviously pulak tu! aku nk tong sampah, die pun nk tong sampah! haish! siyesly rs bengang yg amat.. can't you just stick to your own ? without having to entirely copy most of my belongings?? mmg, org akan cakap.. "normal la tu, dh nme pun family kn?" tp kalo sll sgt, jdik cam abnormal pulak. and I dont even know how to react at this moment, other than to feel mad & sad! xpe la, rezeki die kot.. tp. satu pesanan utk si dia "ko mmg x kn puas ati kn dgn ape yg aku ad kn? sume aku buat, sume ko nk tiru.. just go and find you own damn way!"

bak kata org, Allah xkn mnzalimi hambaNya. maybe ape yg kite nk tu x ckup baik utk kte skrg, and maybe Dia ad sesuatu yg lebih besaaarrr dr ape yg kita nak, and of course, way better dr ape yg kte nak.. *mode berserah pd Yang Esa*..

and right now, it was raining heavily here. As heavy as my heart feels. :(

this is the view through my window. it's raining heavily!

p/s: sgt bengang dgn seorang kakitangan di sini yg handle elaun kami cm tuttt! rs cm org bodo je cek kt tenet byk kali, tgok dh masuk ke x.. tp tak! hampeh.

Monday, November 29, 2010

Monday blues? nope!

Today is not the same like my previous Monday.. the reason being is that because I feel good! vibrant! energetic! hmm.. ape lg ayat yg bleh menggambarkan mood ari ni ye? enthusiastic! and all the synonym that relates to enthusiastic! heh! Frankly speaking, I do not know why, but it feels great you know, where normally Monday is the day that makes you feel kinda blues all day. Wondering why weekend seem to fly away rapidly. But today, I really feel different! Everything seem to be in order, got a couple of things settled, I'm wearing proper, preppy clothes to lab. *mcm nk g tgok wyg pn ad*...

And I hope that this feeling will linger with me for at least until working hour. =)

And thanks to PangeranChenta, for tagging me along with the question. nnt akak buat kalo ad masa ok ;)

Friday, November 26, 2010

gloomy or moody?

To begin with, I don't know what has come over me lately. *sigh* 2-3 ari ni hati rs mcm x tenang. is it me, or is it the surrounding? byk bnde pikir, byk bnde dh plan, but then, none of them I managed to do.

Please go away this bad feeling.. please please please...

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Stop Child Abuse

Child abuse? Well, by reading the title above you'll instantly get a glimpse of what I'm about to write. Yes, STOP CHILD ABUSE!

The acts of child abuse I would never want to see happen again are:

1) physical abuse
2) emotional abuse
3) sexual abuse
4) neglect abuse

Children is our hope, the ones we would hope to manage the future wisely. Thus, it is our responsibility to take care of them, give the best education we could possibly get and nurture them to be a good, brilliant thinker.

So, raise your hand and together we stop child abuse now!


unicef

Monday, November 22, 2010

So they say, Rome wasn't built in a day!

You know, most of the time, it gets me thinking that "berkata2 tu mmg mudah, contohnyA mcm berazam utk improve utk diri sndiri and the list goes on and on... " but then, biar la kita ada 1001 azam pun, if no word such "istiqamah" or "continuity" or whatever you want to call it, as long as the meaning is still the same, xd gunanya kot.. kalo kte x berusaha bersungguh2 utk memastikan azam kte tu tercapai and accomplish!

The same thing happens to me. Let's say, for tonight, I'm too eager listing down things I should be doing tomorrow, or things I must do at least 2-3 times per week, for example: exercise. tapiiiii.. kalo kte x berusaha bersungguh2 utk maintainkn bnde yg kte nk buat tu, hmm, bace la buku yg paling bagus pun, xkn ad gunanya.

So, the best thing to do, is to read EVERYDAY all those things that we want to accomplish, so that we'll always be on track.. and bear in mind that no matter what happen, we will stick to it! After all, Rome wasn't built in a day. ;)

Ok, move to another completely different story.. last night, it was pretty sad to me.. sbb aku dgn x sengajanya terdudukkn spek mata.. uwaa.. dh byk kali bnde ni jd, tp smlm mmg betul2 dasat kot, smpi rim die terbukak.. still bleh pakai, but a bit ackward.. rs cm senget je dunia ni.


ok, it's time to sleep. moga2 esok Monday blues akan berkurangan dr last week. Nite y'all!

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Sunday ramblings

oh.. today I'm all alone again. these past few days, my sis was here. die singgah sini dulu before balik uma cuti. She's a USM student jgk, but at the main campus. So, I feel all alone again since I'm living in a double room but with no roomie. I used to have one before, but she already moved in to a single room. tp ok je duk sorang ni, I got advantages rather than disadvantages. I think, the only disadvantage I can come up with right now is that the fact that I live alone. Tu je kot. Compare to advantagessss, like:

--> I can use as many space as I want, (tp naseb le ye kalo tbe2 1 hari ad roomie br masuk)

--> I can decorate this room as tunggang terbalik as I want... haha

--> I don't have to deal with person who has some kind of peculiar behaviour. Ok, when it comes to this, toleransi tu sgt penting, even up until one point, rs x tahan nak hamburkan segala kepelikan si dia kt sape2 yg sudi dgr.. @__@

But so far, I think I've got pretty good records with all my previous roomies. None of the memories are bitter..

Ok, this is what my room looks like at the moment. I have lotttsss of things, which I do not feature here. Siyesly, masa dh abes blaja nanti, tah bape trip kne ulang dr sini ke umah. In fact, mcm la dekat sgt rumah I tu.. from Penang all the way to Selangor. dekat kot??

Saturday, November 20, 2010

song I listen to

I am totally addicted to this song at the moment. Nelly, Just a Dream.

I guess I was right back then, you don't know what you've got till it's gone.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

I was at the top and I was like I’m at the basement.
Number one spot and now she found her a replacement.
I swear now I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby.
And now you ain't around, baby I can't think.
Shoulda put it down. Shoulda got that ring.
Cuz I can still feel it in the air.
See her pretty face run my fingers through her hair.

My lover, my life. My shorty, my wife.
She left me, I'm tied.
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

When I be ridin man I swear I see her face at every turn.
Tryin to get my usher over, I can let it burn.
And I just hope she notice she the only one I yearn for.
Oh I miss her when will I learn?

Didn't give her all my love, I guess now I got my payback.
Now I'm in the club thinkin all about my baby.
Nelly Just A Dream lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/nelly-just-a-dream-lyrics.html

Hey, she was so easy to love. But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough.

I'm goin through it every time that I'm alone.
And now i'm missin, wishin she'd pick up the phone.
But she made a decision that she wanted to move one.
Cuz I was wrong.

And I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.
I said, if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

And I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

tired, not tired?

Does it occurs to you, that sometimes when you're alone in the middle of the night like this, you're thinking that no matter how much efforts you put on to something that you really care for, the result will still be the same?

You think that maybe this way will lead to happier outcome compared to another way, but then, the truth is nothing's changed, given that you are the only one that trying hard to make it work. And sometimes, I do feel like givin' it all up. Whatever happen, will happen.

You totally have no power in it. I guess someone was right then, "when something really matters to you, you'll give it all you got to make it work."

Pity me, as no one is listening to me, the tears that I cried in my heart. I'm tired. just plain tired.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

qurban, anyone?

oh.. it is almost certain aku x balik raya haji ni. FIRST time ok, before ni x pnh x balik time raya.. sume raya aku balik. tp apekn daya, keadaan kewangan x mengizinkan :( I just went home early of this month, and mind you, I did spend lotss of money during that time! not to blame anyone, but me, sbb time tu ingt duit byk, skali pokai dh. what to do, overspending is my middle name *sigh*

so, this upcoming salary, I seriously need to manage my expenses carefully! because something huge is coming up! *tp tanak mention ape2, sbb xd itam putih lg* tanak dh jd mcm ni.. mampu ke tidak eh? I dunno.... just wait and see then..

it is still raining. I feel sad already, cos I do miss my mom :'(

by the way, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA KPD SELURUH MUSLIMIN & MUSLIMAT.

love?

These past few days byk kali kot rs x sihat. Pening, nk demam, sume ade. I guess it was the weather that caused these unhealthy changes kot. Tiap2 ari hujan, pastu panas yg btul2 panas. Agaknya aku kurang mnum air masak kot..bape byk kot aku tulih pun aku x tau...

Lately there are so many things that came across my mind. Unfortunately, they weren't nice things. Betul ke eh, the longer the time we know that someone, the level of love and passion will reduce gradually? Meaning that the time is inversely proportional with the love given.. Not to mention, the lack of attention and sume yg kte cakap, luahkan, ibarat masuk telinga kanan, kuar telinga kiri..

I'm still figuring this thing out. Hmm.. Agak sedih kalau bnde ni betul.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

7 reasons why to-do list will keep you healthy.. aha!

I stumbled upon this one blog not long ago, about the importance of making to-do list. One trick is to separate your short-term and long-term to-do list, so kte x rs serabut sgt, and mane yg pnting dapat didahulukn. Another one is kte buat mane yg sng nk accomplish dulu, so that we'll feel like we've done things effiiciently, and we won't feel like a burden or something.

Pastu, erm... update list weekly or monthly, depends on our needly-basis. and bile kte rs as bnde yg org lain bleh tlg, do not hesitate to ask them to help you out ok. Remember, kte ni pn manusia biasa. x salah kalo kte mntk tlg org lain seskali ;).. Ok, the 7 reasons are:



1) Gain Control
2) Maximize brainpower --> need I say more? :)
3) Make tough decisions

4) Beat a slump

5) Find motivation
6) Achieve balance

7) Last but not least, you'll feel joy everyday!




well, this my own to-do list. bersepah kn? hehe.

p/s: you can search for more useful tips at online.prevention.com ;)
good luck!

sy syg kwn sy

hmm.. everyday we learn something new. along the process, we do make some mistakes. and we learn from it to further improve ourselves in the future. tp kan, dlm kte berkawan sehari2 ni, x dpt tidak, mest kte ad buat kwn kita tu trase, x sikit, byk.. kn? kn?

the same thing happened to me. I admit, I'm not perfect, and so are you. tp, itu bkn alasan utk kte tidak meng'improve' diri sndiri mnjdi kwn yg lebih baik. kn? In fact, I do try to make everyone around me happy, and xd yg sakit2 ati dek lawak yg kte rs x lawak pn sbnrnye.

So, bile agak2 nk kuarkn statement berani mati tu, kte kne pikir dulu, org lain trase ke x dgn ape yg kte nk ckp ni. one more thing, kalo nk gurau pn, ken la btmpat. ni x, time mmbe kte tgh stress dgn keje die yg x siap, sbb mistake org lain, kte ckp padan muke lak. mane x hangin satu bdn beb! bukan spnjg mase kte leh bgurau. silap2, truih putus kwn nnt, disebabkn mulut berapi kita tu. lame2 mne leh tahan beb!

so, definitely it will effect our friendship with that someone. My advise?

--> appreciate your friends and don't simply say things that might hurt 'em in any way. I believe you know your friends better, right?

--> Think before you speak. sounds so simple, and yet it's hard, isn't it?

last but not least, I love all my friendsssss... =)

cite Friends ni sgt best kn? They stick with each other through thick and thin.

tadaaa!!!

Credited to Goggle for images above.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

gggrr..grrr...

eeee!! kdg2 kn, rs mrh dgn diri sndiri! mase before exam aritu, pnye la bsmgt nk buat sume bnde, tmasuk update blog la, edit gmba la, pastu dan2 nk tgok sume cte, x sdr diri ad 1 paper. tapiii.. bile dh abes exm, mak ai! pnye la mls nk buat sume bnde *sigh*

arini mmg bkn hr yg produktif utk sy. I just managed to wash my clothes, other than that? no improvement. pdhal dlm waiting list, byk kot bnde nk buat @__@ sy sgt malas. mengapakah? uwaa..

and then, when it was time to write somethin' on this blog, suddenly this one thought hit my mind, hard! "rs mcm x best je ape yg aku tulih kt blog." "ad ke org bc?" "omg, sume yg aku tulih ni, was it a crap?" lebih kurang mcm tu la aku pk. pastu trus x jd tulis. pdhal mase dlm kete, kt shopping mall, tgh mkn, tgh bjln, idea utk menulis sntiasa ad. tp tgn je yg xd kekuatan utk menaip. what the fish aishah??

Friday, November 5, 2010

renung2kan & slmt beramal :)

Salam semua..

fuh.. today I am extremely relieeveddd.. sbb exam dh abes.. yahoooo!! it was my pra syarat utk grad nnt, so I have to take this one paper yg bleh tahan jgk tahap kesusahan die.. lg pun, dh dekat setahun x amek any exam, so rs mcm x tau gila cane nk adapt dgn exam kali nih.. early sem dule, berazam utk dptkn A, tp smlm, berazam utk lulus pn dh cukup @_@..

Ok, we move to another completely different story. ;) As I was on my way back to Penang last Wednesday, kebetulan time tu dekat2 nk pukul 7, dgr Hot fm. Diorang ade segmen baru, Hot Fm Refleksi (kalo x silap la), where this segment is focusing more on muhasabah diri, which is good I think. dpt jgk dengar lagu Raihan yg dh lme x dgr tu, lg dr Maher Zain and lagu2 lain yg bersifat ketuhanan. and setiap kali abes 2 lagu, Prof Izi Ali yg tkenal dgn tagline "renung2kn, dan slmt beramal" tu, die akan bg tazkirah sikit.. this is what I've got so far during the journey to the north.. :D sorry kalau ad yg tersilap paham and maksud x smpi kt kamu ye... sy hnye manusia biasa ;)

1) jaga adab di rumah tetamu
- meaning that kalau kite g umah orang tu, jgn la duk sibuk2 tnye psl mkn ke, itu ke, ini ke.. kalau kite dh tau org tu x mmpu nk sediakn mknn yg best2, x yh gatai mulut nk request itu ini okay :p

2) berkumpul utk dpt kasih Allah
- instead of berkumpul utk lepak2 minum kopi, mengumpat ke, why not kita berkumpul di majlis2 ilmu, bertukar maklumat, insyaAllah kita akan dapat kasih dr Allah.. bukan dr manusia... jgn main2.. kasih Allah itulah yg paling agung.

3) berjihad di jalan Allah
- berjihad kt sni bukan brmksud kte g berperang mcm zaman Nabi dulu2, tp berjihad utk melawan hawa nafsu kita sndiri. nmpk senang, tp when it comes to practise, it is real hard, esp hawa napsu utk bersoping for a woman like me ;)

4) second chance
- do you believe in second chance? afraid not, because the greatest men amongst us also didn't succeed in their first attempt. They tried and tried and tried, and if it's not for them, xkn ad kot electricity, bulb, telephone and whatsoever technology that most of us couldn't live without. :)

5) mmbntu org lain tnpe mgharapkn balasan
- Allah swt suka & syg pd org yg bila die tlg org lain, xd mgharpkn ape2 balasan. lebih dr cukup kn? ;)

Saturday, October 30, 2010

releasekn tension kt belog

hari ini, pd waktu ini, saat ini, rs super duper sakit ati, marah gile, rs mcm nk lempar sume brg kt tanah, or lempar kt atas lantai lg bagus kn? sng, berkecai trus! ggrr.. siyesly rs mrh ya amat! mengapakah?

2 3 ari ni hp kesyangan asik jatuh je. sjak g lgkawi aritu, bleh dikatakan almost every day die akan jatuh. tau x, setiap kali jatuh tu, rs mcm pecah jantung I!!! uwaa... ingt senang ke nk dpt hp idaman? td pun dh 2x jatuh.. yg aritu pnye jatuh dh terhakis dh key pad die.. td jatuh rs cm nk hempas2 je atas lantai! dh la tensen ngn bnde lain + hp asik jatuh, siyesly i cannot think rationally anymore!! @__@

but I feel lucky though, sbb mine is Nokia and it was made from metal, kunun2 tough la.. so kalo hp Nokia, jatuh byk kali pun insyaAllah ok lg *ayat sedapkn ati sndiri*.... my hp is Nokia E71, exactly like the image below..
this hp has done soo many favor to me, tu yg sedih kalo asik jatuh je :( I am the kind of person yg mmg sgt cermat mnjaga barang, *ayat bajet best ni diakui oleh my famly and my bf okeh* :p.. so, I mmg akan hangin satu bdn kalo sape2 yg gune brg I, pastu x reti jg.. mmg telinga tu sokmo kuar asap la.. hahaha..

Friday, October 29, 2010

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do you know what hurts the most? when you think that someone you truly care for, is the person that most understanding you in and out. and at some point, it turned out to be wrong. it is the same person that you thought most understand you, is the one who do not understand you at all. after all what you've been doing all this time is trying to follow the right path, that person seem to be dislike it for a reason that I do not understand at all.

and that person keeps on hurting me as much as I try to take care of that person's feelings, heart etc etc. I do my best to make a relation between human as wonderful as possible, without breaking any law..but...

I am not perfect, yet I'm just some random human with feelings. I've reached my limitation of being patient, and I did try my best not to break anyone's heart. But somehow, it is me whose heart got broken in the first place, just for the sake of trying to protect others feelings.

I'm at my very lowest point in my life, right now. Whatever happen, will happen. Years and years of knowing someone is not a definite guarantee that it would have a happy ending.


footnote: credit to google for images.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

you don't know what you've got til it's gone.

sy mau hati ni setenang lautan. :)

whenever we feel lost or there is something missing that we don't even know what that thing is, Allah The Gracious will always be there to guide us to the right path. it's just the matter of nak tak nak je..

these past few days, I feel like there's a hole deep inside my heart, I don't even know how to say, or how to explain to my other half when I told him about this. But I do know, that there were few events that made me feel sad, angry, crazy I might say? Rs mcm apa yg kita buat x dihargai lgsung. masing2 nk ikut kpla masing2, and in the end, I was the one yg kne mengalah? oh tidak! But then, I realize, why not back to basic? dekatkan diri dgn lebih kepadaNya, insyaAllah hati akan tenang.

Please forgive me for all my sins, Dear Allah.. aminnn..

Saturday, October 16, 2010

I'm done with u.

you know, sometimes when we think that we've already give all of our best to someone, and suddenly, we feel that everything we've done is not, well, kinda appreciated by that someone, we'll feel sad. yes, that is what happening to me right now.

kdg2 rs mcm, baik x pyh lgsung kisah pasal org, or give advice when he or she most needed it. rs mcm x berbaloi bila kite rs kita dh tlg yg tbaik, bg nasihat, support in term of money, and etc etc (bkn nk mengungkit).. n when th time comes bila pndapat kita x sama dgn dia, he or she will act like I am the one who shud be blamed. wtf?

dh bg nasihat berpuluh2 kali, ckp itu ini, and I even told that person, not to be me, where I am still regretting for what happening to me when i was back in first year of my undergrad life, tp still x reti2 bhs lg ka?

so, whatever might happen after this, lu carik solution sndiri ok. tayah byk2 tnye itu ini kat I! ckp beribu kali pun masih x reti bhs. so, lantak la.. ape nk jd, jd la ok.. sket pn sy xkisah.

kdg2 rs menyesal sbb interfere dgn decision die satu ms dulu.

ok, dh ilang marah,

Friday, October 15, 2010

emergency emergency

ok, I seriously need a good time management! not good, the best time management!

gambatte Aishah!

Thursday, October 7, 2010

second chance



do you believe in 2nd chance? I do! bila dh umur makin mghmpiri level matang nih, ehem2, rs mcm byk sgt kot aku bermonolog. I've been thinking a lot! literally about everything. and lately, one thing that came to mind is when someone is given the second chance to prove something to others.

what type of 2nd chance that I got? well, byk sgt kategori yg aku rs aku bkn stkt peluang ke 2, ke 3, ke 4 dan ke berapa tah aku pn x pasti, tp yg pastinya, most of the times, I DID NOT appreciate the opportunity that God once gave me. x hargai ni bg aku mcm x teruskn bnde yg aku dapat tu dgn istiqamah, or in other words, continuity. bile buat something, mest sekerat je. pastu benti. pastu bila nk start balik. kne mule dari zero sbb dh lame tingglkn. it's like all for nothing!

contoh paling simple yg aku leh bg... hmm.. exercise! mcm joging!. cm aku, dh seminggu maintain joging, rentak joging pun dh dpt, kira dh leh lari satu kampus ni dgn selambanya, xd la nk terkapai2 menarik napas..pastu tbe2 aku stop, dgn alasan byk keje la, itu la, ini la.. bila rs jeans tu dh x muat ke, bdn rs berat ke, baru la terkedek2 nk start joging balik. haa, masa ni br la rs nyesal, marah, benci sume ad sbb x maintain joging. hahahaha.. eh, logik x contoh yg aku bg nih?

ok, smbung nnt la.. nk cte sket pasal joging nih.. ehem2.. skang nk smyg n buat pape yg ptt. ;)

till next time peeps!

peaceee!!!!!

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

happy is the key to everything! err, literally everything kot..

hi guys! hari ni kan, tah kenapa rs mcm dpt smgt baru pulak! even keje still x siap2, kene perli lg tuh ngan sv.. ahaks! tp sy rs gmbira! rs mcm skrg ni enjoy dgn my work, and rs bsmgt nk siapkn keje lab, n write a paper for publishing purpose! rs mcm dh leh wat 1 or 2 paper utk publish nih. i already got one paper already published, and now I think I want more! tp skang ni tgh siapkn paper utk conference dlu, br leh pk utk bnde lain.

but whatever it is, I think I'm happy enough with my works. :D this is the pic of me smilingggg.... :):):):):)


p/s: ada mcm adik beradik x? *wink*

Friday, October 1, 2010

me being the typical malay

hari ni rsnya buat kerja dgn bsungguh2.. kot? i dunno, but i feel like i need to feel the pain and the joy of finishing something that I write, regardless of the quality of "results and discussion" part. hehehe.. dh x sempt dh kot nk tuka or tambah result baru. i just managed to improvise the old ones, and hope it is enough utk kali ini. :-s

and I guess I'm just being me, a typical malay yg mmg suke sgt2 buat gheja last minit nih! mmg betul2 last minit, dan ditambah pulak kalau gheja tu xpe anta over deadline sbb ad org dalam yg tlg. muahahaha.. ekceli, rs menyesal sbrnye. byk kali kot dh bjnji dgn diri sndiri,

''Aishah, pasni ape pun keje yg ko buat, pastikn siap awal2 ye, xd la kelam kelibut, tensen semacam nnt."

and the result?? I am still being the typical me, typical malay yg mmg suke last2 minet pnye keje.

pastu rs menyesal dan sedih sbb tak explore betul2 kebolehan dlm diri. (-__-)

current worksation. thx to pihak desa sbb provide a larger table utk org yg super byk brg mcm sy ni.. wpun area dpn loker muat2 utk sy sorg je tgok cermin, belek2 muka, tp sy berpuas ati. time kasih lg skali ye :D

p/s: rsnye utk entry yg akan dtg, nk letak at least 1 image. bolehkah? let's cekidaut later.

Monday, September 27, 2010

late night wondering, thinking of....

I never thought that, at age like this, as for me, I am 24 years old already, still rs mcm ad mslh identiti.. mcm mase zaman hingusan dulu! hehehe.. rs x secure la, low self esteem la.. n mcm 2 lg la.. n i guess it doesnt matter whether you are 12, 20 or 30 years old, this kind of feeling ttp akan dirasai kalo kite x yakin dgn diri sndiri!

let's face the facts that they will definitely someone yg lebih cantik, lebih comel, lebih pandai, lebih kaya, n ape2 yg lebih la dr kita. and most of the time, we are too busy deciding who's prettier, richer or other -er rather than be grateful of what we have now.

kalau nak compare tahap kesenangan, kesempurnaan paras rupa, kebahagiaan keluarga, adalah lebih baik kita bandingkan diri kita dgn org yg lebih susah hidupnya dr kita, yg kehilangan sebelah tangan atau yg buta sebelah mata, yg keluarganya ad mslh peribadi.. sbb dr situ kita akan rs bsyukur sgt2 that we have a perfect body, not more, not less, a perfect family, and we still can eat at leat 2 times per day, compared to those who do not eat at all!

dan kalo nk compare our ability academically, kita tgok org yg lebih pndai dr kita, mcm mane die usaha smpi dpt result yg excellent cmtu.. so that we could make ourselves move another step ahead. ;)

pesanan utk diri aku sndiri, bsyukur dgn apa yg Allah dh kurniakn kt aku, sbb Dia xkn menguji hambaNya dgn sesuatu yg kita x mmpu nk hadapi...
smileee... sbb sekurang2nya aku ad anggota badan yg smpurna, and I have one perfect family. what more could I ask for?
love yourself for who you really are. be confident. be bold. be excellent! :)

p/s:utk org yg suke sgt kondem org lain, kau ingt kau tu sempurna sgt ke? ehem!


Sunday, September 26, 2010

why is this happening?

these past few days I'm not proud of what I've been doing. last-minute assignment, unaccomplished missionsss, n byk lg la keje yg asik ttangguh je. x tahu npe :(

adekah sudah ilang mood utk bljr? or I already lost my "taring" utk perform sehabis baik? rsnye dulu when I first register as a masters student, I promised myself to redeem back of what I have lost before. nk bsungguh2 wat lab, thesis.. mule2 dlu ok, tp skrg rs cm hampeh je.. apo kono eh jang?

I think I have everything that I want, and even things that I don't want that much. I just have to read, write and learn. ape yg susah aku pn x tahu *sigh* siyesly rs mcm mls gilersssss nk blaja. rs cm x saba nk carik keje... tp bile keje dugaan die lain pulak. x bleh nk hu ha mcm zaman blaja. cuti pun x byk mcm skrg. at least skang kalo rs mls g lab pndai2 la create excuses yg logik2. heh.

adekah sy manusia yg x bersykur? ya Allah, mntk2 simpang la dr bnde yg x baik itu. n lately rs smyg pun x kusyuk, asik terpikir mcm2 mase smyg. smpi asik pening pale je.. :(

YA ALLAH, AKU HARAP KERJA INI ADALAH KERJA YG AKU MMPU BUAT, SUKA BUAT, DAN ENGKAU BERKATI. AMIN.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

conversation with a friend

one of my friend asked me yesterday...

"izzit ok kalau i berhenti smbg bljr kt sni and continue back at one of the nearest uni around my hometown?"

ok, at first agak tkejut dia ckp mcm tu, sbb nmpk dia ok je before ni..

tp tu la kn, mslh org kdg2 kte x tahu, luar nmpk ok, tp dalaman, maybe she's fighting with her unstable emotion. and then i asked her why she wanna do that?

it seem like ad sedikit mslh di skul that caused her to lose interest to continue her study here.

mmg, bg certain org bnde ni akan nmpk remeh, n mebi diorg akan ckp yg kte ni x realistik or tlalu ikutkn perasaan.. sbb ape yg jd, mest akan ad pros and cons dia. tp.... kalau mslh tu mybbkn kite mmg xd ati lgsg nk buat keje or perform at our very best, jln yg dipilih tu maybe terbaik.

and judging by the way that I see her everyday, maybe the decision is for the best. kalau aku pn, blum tntu aku bleh idup sorang mcm tu lama2..she's a strong person.

tp kan, one of my friend said that I could live alone with strangers, sbb kunun2 aku ni friendly and cpt mesra orgnya. cewah! hehehe..

by the way, apepun decision yg die amik, I wish her the very best!

don't explain yourself to your friends, cos they don't need it, and your enemy won't believe it.

do what you think is best for you :)

Thursday, September 2, 2010

risonye sayeeee

oh tidak! dekat2 nk cuti ni keje makin bertmbah! rsnye dh dekat seratus kali kot arini aku mengomel sendirian or mengomel kt rakan2 lain pasal keje byk nih.

tu la, time xd keje dlu, lepak2 sgt.. padan la kot ngan muka aku.

tapi..... (yg keje2 last minet tu bkn sy yg decide tarikh die) ok, x bleh nk salahkn org lain! xd tapi2! whatever the reason is, aku yg ptt btnggungjawab. i dont wanna put others to blame.

Monday, August 9, 2010

luahan hati seorang pelajar

kdg2, ok, bukan kdg2, but more often than always, sll sgt rs nk give up my masters degree, and proceed dgn carik keje. *sigh* it's not that I don't have a good supervisor, he is more than good enough, believe me you. Tp environment sekeliling yg pd pndangan aku, do not offer much favor to me. Did i choose the wrong path? mungkin sy x layak kot nk smbung2 blaja nih..

And I think yes....I do! :(

But it is too late to change the course of my life. What we do today, is the choice made by us.

The only solution possible is to change my response (mood utk teruskn study) to the event (my current research) to get the expected outcome (me graduated with flying colors!)

Thanks to Jack Canfield, the author of 25 Principles of Success. At least I still have hope.

Hope... itu yg paling penting buat aku skrg.

Friday, July 30, 2010

of all people. why me?

Sometimes I wonder, why this thing happened to me? Why of all people, I am the one that God chose to accept this kind of trouble (or punishment I might say) or whatever things that I wish I do not want it to happen! But then, after a while when everything is going back to normal again, I said to myself, "ohh, patut la Allah buat mcm ni hari tu, rupe2nye bnde ni menyenangkan aku di masa skrg."

And I couldn't stop smiling thinking betapa adilnya Allah Yang Satu itu. Sometimes things happen for a reason. It might not be good for us now and perhaps later, something even BETTER awaits us. Smileeee...

I am in the mode utk menenangkan hati yg gundah gulana sbb td bila kol jbtn bndahari, encik tutttt sedang bercuti selama seminggu. Hmm, dh agak dh.. Si dia mmg mcm tu, asal gaji masuk, time tu dia cuti sbb konpem x larat nk angkat fon n jmpe student face to face. Tp kan, dh mmg salah encik tuttt ok.. Borang sy dh bg, xkn ilang lg kotttt...

Td dh kol bndahari,dn borang tu mmg ad kt stu.. so, whose fault is that? For someone who has been working on the same thing for quite some time, this kind of thing should never happen! They should have have one systematic way to make sure everything is organized. Dh terbukti dh, and I know I'm not the one to blame, as I already done my duty by giving him the form longggg time ago.

Takpela, ad hikmah kot semua ni, even td my beloved viva ad mslh bateri. Dh agak dh, tp x sngke time xd duit ni dia nk jd...hmmm..

Thursday, July 29, 2010

sy yg tgh marah

I don't know why these past few days asyik rs nk mrh org je.. serba serbi buat sume x kne.. haish! I hate this kind of feeling, sbb nnt bile nk buat sume keje konpem x jdik or the result won't be as expected.

And just now, my SV told all of us to submit an abstract for conference paper, latest by tomorrow. What the fish?? I don't even know where to start.. (I am that kind of person who will get panic on the spot and everything will be blurrrred.. as blur as you can imagine! *sigh*)

And just now also, (haish, byknye just now aku), I found out that sume lab mate sudah mndapat elaun masing2.. uwaa. nape asik aku je yg kne?? npe aku x dpt2 lg? ;(( last month pun mcm tu jgk.. but that I can understand, sbb borang tu bndahari x terima. tp xkn ilang lagi kot borang tu wahai encik tutttt... sy x larat ok asik nk call encik je.. sy pun malu kot, mntk duit sndiri kt org lain.. eeeeeeeee, rs nk marah plus hangin satu badan plus rs nk korek lubang pastu duduk kt situ lama2.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

the back-up plan

I have to keep constantly reminding myself that no matter in what condition I am in, or I will be in, I have to and I must be independent! mesti ok! (ye, sy seorang bdk, ops silap, sy seorang perempuan yg sll sgt lupe bnde2 kecik mcm ni, pastu nnt sy duduk sorang2 kt corner bilik smbil mengenang nasib diri yg sll sgt rs semua org akan tlg sy). That is totally wrong!

No matter how we think we have someone or people that will always be around us all the time, difficulties will arise someday where at that moment, xd sape yg akan tlg kamu. melainkan kamu dan diri kamu sndiri. So, the back-up plan adlh sgt penting. bkn cm cite yg jLo blakon tu, tu backup plan lain.. *giggle*

Jgn harapkn duit org lain, or org2 spesel akan tlg bila time susah tu dtg. Human's human. Kdg2 mereka sndiri x phm ape yg kite rs time kte nk dlm kesusahan tu.. so, drpd kita rs sakit hati kt org lain, you better have your own emergency plan. sob3.. tbe2 trase ati pulak ari ni..

Monday, July 26, 2010

over the breakup songs

I barely remember when is the exact date of me being dumped by that ugly bastard! hehehe.. sori, got a bit harsh there. cewah, ekceli ingt je, I can remember it perfectly well, it was the first year of my uni life, on second semester. and thanks to that b***h, I didn't pass the final exam, and my loan was barred for one semester, and I have to pay the uni fees all by myself, not my money, my mum's actually. you are the most wonderful mother in the world, thanks a lot for your understanding and being there for me at that worst time of my life. history's history. but the scar will remain forever I must say, and now that you are happily married, congratulations! I am totally over you, way over. :)

well, that's not the story I wanna write here.. just nak share the songs that I used to hear when my heart was broken like s**t! wow, byknye curse words hari ni. sorry ya..all those songs did help me a lot through the healing process (yess, this is the worst moment in my life so far, so the healing process takes a lot more time than you can imagine). and of course, byk dekatkn diri pada Yang Esa itu sudah pasti. :)

I used to listen to all those songs bila tibe2 sdih x tntu pasal, bile rs mcm nk off-on hp byk kali smbil harap lps off hp tu akan ad msg or kol masuk, bile rs mcm nk gile sbb x tau ape kslhn sndiri smpi diperlakukan sebegitu rupa, bile rs self motivation super down and I can barely look at the mirror and tell myself that everything's gonna be ok, and bile rs nk melayan perasaan sndiri tnpa menitiskan air mata (and most of the times, I never failed to shed some tears). well, speak no more. the songs are:

1) Jet - look what you've done
2) Ashley Parker Angel - let you go
3) Natalie Umbruglia - torn
4) Nick Lachey - what's left of me
5) No Doubt - don't speak
6) Destiny's Child - emotion
7) Katherina McPhee - over it
8) BSB - I still

and the one and only song that's been my all time favorite was..............

"Eamon - don't want you back"

this song is totally cool. why did I say that? listen to it yourself and you'll know why... hihihi.. listen at your own risk ok. awal2 dh bg warning nih... hehehe..

well, I am extremely happy now. no sad feelings or whatsoever. it took me almost a year to fully recover and got myself right back up.

so, don't simply hurt someone's feeling, and if you don't love him/her anymore, just tell them the truth right in front of their faces. just don't walk away like nothing happen and leave them clueless. because the wound is deeper, much much deeper than you can ever imagine.

the truth sometimes hurt

yes, it is true... every things that you face everyday will give you difficulties occasionally. for example, bgaduh dgn kwn la, bf menipu la(ckp nk balik esok, tp dia balik lusa), tibe2 sakit ati la, n mcm2 lg. and it is up to our wisdomness and capability to solve such things wisely, without breaking anyone's feelings around us.

and my friend had once said that,"org laki ni kalo gado smpi luka sana sini, sok2 bile diorang ok, mmg ok sgt2, mcm xdak pa yg jd smlm, and org pmpuan kalo gaduh or trase ati esp part2 yg besaaarr pnye trase, sok2 bila dh ok, but that emotion, yg rs disakiti tu depa akan ingt smpi bila2." and of course, we will think of it once in a blue moon.

so, guys, bhati2 dlm bkwn, n kalau boleh, jgn smpi buat kwn tu trase ati yg smpi nk meletop jantung dia. i have had experiences dealing with this, though I'm not the one who like to started it all, but that 'feeling', still lingering somewhere inside of me. kalau bole, aku akan jg ati org tu sebaik2nya, because.... simple! i dont wanna be hurt either! and please please please, jgn trase x tntu pasal dgn status org kt facebook, ym or any social networking. because of that so-called status, x pasal2 kite akan gaduh dgn org.. haa, naseb la ko time tu, sume bnde aku luahkan, dr luar kain smpi dalam kain. and yg x bestnya, sume tu adlh btul.. *pastu rs nyesal lak, sian kt die* x baik nk bukak pekung org lain... hahahaha..

yess, I am the type of girl who will spit out everything without giving any second thought about the consequences, BUT ONLY when someone triggers the "tiger" inside of me! hehehe.. maksudnya, jgn carik pasal dgn aku la..

i do respect the way of others living themselves, and you have to do the same too.. after all, we are 1 Malaysia.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

back from unplanned hiatus

oh, dh lme sungguh x menaip di sini. i did visit my blog once in a while, and of course dlm kpla ni byk sgt bnde yg x sbr utk diterjemahkan dlm bntuk tulisan, but then, i dont know where the passion of writing has gone. *sigh* n now im back in writing mode. let's just pray that it will last longer than before, will you? ;)

yesterday me and my 6 friends had a blast watching Eclipse movie, the third installment of Twilight Saga. and two thumbs up to the director, the screenwriter and everyone involved in the making of it! it is not easy to translate a novel into one great movie you know.you have to come up with the best screen play as possible, without neglecting the important scene and the movement of the story in the particular book. tp biase la kn, utk yg x suke tgok cte ni, mcm2 diorg ckp, tp tgok jgk. just for the sake nk mengutuk. well, ape kate ko sndiri yg buat 1 movie, n let me see it. nk tgok bagus sgt ke tidak! bluwek!! :p x salah kot nk bg pndangan, tp xyh la smpi nk mengutuk mcm die sorg yg perfect kn. ok, enough said!

and thanks to my friends yg tgok same2.. nnt next installment kte g lg ok.. ;)

Thursday, June 3, 2010

knowledge is power, isn't it?

it has been quite sometimes since my last post. bukan tak tau nk tulis ape, but I kept thinking, "org suka ke bc ape yg aku tulis ni? dh la gmba pun jarang2 nk upload." but then, I remember that this is MY blog, so basically I can do anything and I can write anything that I like in here, without having to worry whether people might get bored or not, right? nerd

what's with the title above? tah, tbe2 terpikir, at times like this, I mean zaman yg serba maju n canggih skrg, information is borderless! everything yg kite nk tau, we can simply google it! yess, goggle is a biggg word right now. in fact, dlm cte Twilight pun, Edward Cullen ad ckp cmni, "you can google it." hehehe.. cumenye, it's up to us to decide which info gives the most accurate and reliable answer. so, it is a very LAME excuse if someone says, "oh, i x tau pun.." or "ala, I xpndai la nk carik info pasal ni".. busuk come on, kalo facebook ko reti create account, xkn nk carik info pun x reti babe.

the most important key for me is the words / sentence that we write in that box. general words mcm a, is, the and lain2 rsnye x perlu letak. keyword is very important utk mnentukan maklumat yg korang carik tu betul and tepat! and sometimes, kalo korang dh biase dgn satu2 web ni, type the name of the web as well. for example, korang slalu donlod games or installer mcm yahoo messenger or anything kt 4shared, so simply type "rush ranch games 4shared." senang bukan? kenyit

ok, enough of me mumbling! goodnite.
senyum

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

untitled... again.

sejak menukar template kt blog nih, makin bmsgt lak utk menail rsnye. serius! there are so many things inside my head that I wanna write down here, tips, emotions and anything at all! tp kdg2 bile byk2 tulis, tkot org bosan. I think people love to see more pictures instead of longggg writing. but xkn everytime nk upload gmba kot? I am not that rajin, and I do respect and impressed for those people that features at least one picture in every entry of theirs.

smlm dh habes tgok cte The Vampire Diaries. and today i am so bloody boring as to figure what to do now, because at times like this, mmg tgok cte tu smpi sakit punggung. ahahaha...

and tomorrow's holiday. x tau nk watpe.. elaun pun x masuk lg.. sedih.. sedih nk jln2 dgn naim x leh, nk g beli2 brg ngan sara pun x leh.. and most of my friends are going home already.

final touch up!

finally, selesai sudah proses mengedit blog ni.. and I hope the colors that I chose fit with the background and all. topi

hari ni ad spot check kat lab, org dr unit pembangunan dan ape tah dtg wat inspection, and of course, we had gotong royong last week, label bnde tu, label bnde nih, and make sure everything looks good and professional! konon la..
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and my roomate sudah selamat kembali ke Malaysia n Penang. before ni dia g US lawat adik dia grad and sambil2 tu g makan angin. best jgk ye kalo ad byk duit nih, mcm2 tempat leh g, and leh beli. and she got me something!
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cantik kan? hehehe... she knows how much I love tinkerbell... masa mula2 akak rumate bg, agak terover excited jgk la.. I thought it was a music box or something, but it is a decanter with a very nice smell. hmm, kalo ad bath tab, for sure dh lama berendam nih..love

till then~ babai

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

what do you think of my new look?

kwn2, what do you think of my blog? izzit ok? izzit nice? sj carik angin baru, and i need something that represents me more. kenyit

actually there's still lots of things need to be changed, but I'm taking it one step at a time.

ok, gtg for dinner with my other half. I'm not eating, just temankan dia aje senyum

hee hoo..

dear diaries,

slmt pg sume.. celebratemulakan hari anda dgn sarapan! jom kte breakfast. arini teringin nk mkn roti pisang kt Riyas + nescafe ais kaw! minum

wishin you guys have a very nice day today! plan for today:

1) sort out journal yg dh x tersusun dh tu.. pening pale tgok.
2) print out table for my experiments.
3) run planetary mill as usual.
4) basuh bju balik tghari nnt.. sengihnampakgigi

Monday, May 24, 2010

Monday blues

It's Monday already. So I'm wishing everyone a happy Monday! peace

and as for me, I wish there's no more this so called "Monday Blues" where I couldn't get any of my works done! I wish Monday would be a great day for me to kick off the whole week with achievements!
nerd x salah kot nak jd nerd kdg2.. hihi..

till next time.. ~

oh ya, I made a banner for my new upcoming blog template. harap2 lps tuka template baru, akan lebih bsmgt utk menulis / menaip.

rsnye sy sudah terpengaruh dgn cite The Vampire Diaries! gee... sengihnampakgigi

You should try to watch it, lg2 utk org yg suke cte Twilight or any vampire story yg seangkatan. the first season has already ended.

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