uncertainties

he says that I've rarely update this blog lately. yep, it's true. even banyak story worth telling here, but I don't seem to find the vibe to write. Kecewa dgn keadaan sekeliling, dengan org yang tak henti2 beri janji palsu, dengan uncertainty yang tidak pasti bila boleh selesai, dengan banyak benda tertangguh.

But, one thing for sure, though... I will and I'm obligated to finish my study by the end of this year.

Adapt or die

In this big fat world, we do realize that not all of the things go accordingly. There are times that we've seen no justice, and yet, we play along with it. We know the truth, and we're not dumb, we just don't have the power to go against it.

Like some says, adapt or die.

Yes, I'm not numb or stupid or silly, mind you.. I know the truth is not as real as you always claimed. But what to do, I have to lay my card on the table, just like you, just like others. Period.

serious or not serious?

pernah tak korang rasa macam other people don't take you seriously? erm, ye la, korang selalu nampak chillax and gelak2, tapi when it comes to something serious, they tend to think that you dunno how to do it properly. come on, I mean, lain orang, lain cara kan? nampak sempoi tapi..... jeng3..

sebab, kadang2 it turned out that diorang pun salah sebenarnye. ekekeke... slalu tengok kat tv, pasal orang2 kaya bersosial, even satu habuk pun diorang tak paham pasal certain issues, but they still make their serious face, like they know literally everything about that.

gaya mutu keunggulan, eh? yg penting gaya, even habuk pun tak paham?

I should practise that more!

im not in a stable mood

it's been a while since my last post here. nk kate xd cite, well, byk bnde yg bleh dikongsi. but for now, I'm not in my best condition. x tau nape, tp rs sgt down skrg. I'm mad at myself sbb suke sgt buat keje half way. buat skit, benti. buat sket, benti..

haishh..! i dont even know where I put my resolutions. br 11 hari kt 2011, tp diri sndiri dh buat perangai. i used to think that bile kte dh umur 25, all those missions will be accomplished. and we are at 100% confidence level of ourselves. tapiii..... x pun! still rs mcm byk bnde x dicapai, and kdg2, well, most of the time kottt, rs low self esteem. x cntik la, itu la, ini la... adoi! apa macam ini? pastu, bile buat something, either it work, halfway, or it wont work at all! sudah kurang kah tahap keefisienan diri ni?

hmm.. x bleh jadi. harus berubah!

p/s: kte x ptt rs jeles dgn kebahagiaan org lain, tp kalau si dia dgn kepoyooan dan keberlagakn diri yg agak terserlah, sudah pasti rs meluat menerjah diri, bukan? and yes, aku meluat dgn dia. baik mcm mane pun, ad je nk tunjuk lagak! buwek!

happy new year!

Rsnye masih x terlmbat utk ucap Selamat Tahun bary @ Happy New year guys! I started my new year back at home, sbb my mum mintak teman anta my youngest bro g PLKN.. so, ad gk experience tgok bdk2 ni register, naik bas sume2..

well, talking about new year, there must be new resolutions, eh? mine is to complete all incomplete resolutions for last year. kidding! :p but, one thing for sure.. harap2 tahun ni dpt settle down with the person that I love.. that would be my biggest dream of the year. semoga dipermudahkn olehNya. insyaAllah.

and its already 1.26 in the morning. masih x dpt tido sbb td dh 2 jam terbongkang atas katil.. ujan lebat & sejuk & letih pnye pasal. jom main farmville dulu.

isnin dtg lagi

hari sabtu & ahad yg lepas merupakan hari yg agak busy for me. my parents come all the way from our hometown sbb nk anta my little sis back to usm in penang, cuti sem dah berakhir, smbil tu jln2 carik mkn.. but due to the short trip, cume smpt bwk g 2 tmpt mkn shj.

and as for today? sgt bersemangat utk review balik my resolutions throughout this year, and I'm planning to make a brand new, updated list for next year! mane2 yg x tercapai akan dilkasanakan pd tahun dpn, insyaAllah.. harap2 tahun dpn tahun yg baik dan great for me to finish my master. aminn...

ok, ni update sgla mcm fail & kertas atas meja nih..

till next time.. :)

Monday blues? nope!

Today is not the same like my previous Monday.. the reason being is that because I feel good! vibrant! energetic! hmm.. ape lg ayat yg bleh menggambarkan mood ari ni ye? enthusiastic! and all the synonym that relates to enthusiastic! heh! Frankly speaking, I do not know why, but it feels great you know, where normally Monday is the day that makes you feel kinda blues all day. Wondering why weekend seem to fly away rapidly. But today, I really feel different! Everything seem to be in order, got a couple of things settled, I'm wearing proper, preppy clothes to lab. *mcm nk g tgok wyg pn ad*...

And I hope that this feeling will linger with me for at least until working hour. =)

And thanks to PangeranChenta, for tagging me along with the question. nnt akak buat kalo ad masa ok ;)