Back to December

I am, at the moment, in love with this song from Taylor Swift, "Back to December".. every time I listen to the song, it gives me goosebumps, perhaps for the strong lyrics and in a way, it relates to my previous life also.. check out the lyrics below. By the way, Taylor is one of the most talented artist so far, not to mention she wrote all the lyrics herself. Way to go girl!

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life, tell me how's your family
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier then ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why

'Cause the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to december all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to december, turn around and make it all right and
I go back to december all the time

These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn't call
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side,
Realized I loved you in the fall
And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to december all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to december, turn around and change my own mind and
I go back to december all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night,
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

But this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I'd go back to december
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine and
I go back to december, turn around and make it alright and
I go back to december, turn around and change my own mind and
I go back to december all the time

All the time

[credit to: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/t/taylor_swift/back_to_december.html]

overall, this song is about her wishes to go back to december to make everyhting right for that person she once loved, and there has been a rumour that Taylor wrote this song as an apology for Taylor Lautner where they used to be together back in 2009 I guess. Frankly speaking, I love to see them both together. Don't you? ;) and Taylor is a nice boy.. well, who doesnt love to see him shirtless in New Moon,right? hehe.

As for me, I learned a lesson, the hard way. and yeah, I wish to go back to say my apology to the person I once hurt, and like they say, what goes around comes around. The same thing happened to me. I got hurt way too deep and it effected me a lot! It got me thinking for a long time that maybe I deserved that kind of punishment, for I did the same to other person.

how I wish to say I'm sorry for everything that I've done in the past to him..

I'm happy now and I wish him for the same too.

and as for the person who once broke my heart, I do wish to go back to punch him in the face, hard!